i'll never forget watching all the reds and organges slip away, letting go of yet another dirty day
today could have quite possible been the worst day i've had this year. i'm tired and don't want to explain but basically everything that could have gone wrong did. but it's snowing out now which makes me happy, and tommorow is friday.
saturday is the jps concert. march is going to be pure insanity and i can't even begin to explain my schedule - i've decided to take each day as it comes but basically i'm going to be living at the academy again ;) that's always fun. but it's going to be so much harder this year because the 'seniors' and room 20 are gone.
i kind of mad at myself right now too. i got a 65 and 76 on my math tests today and traficante told me i did good. i was about to flip out on her when she said that. since when is getting a D and a C good?? is she on drugs or something?!? i work so hard in that class but it sucks because she can't teach. atleast i'm not the only one struggling. there are six smart people in my class that always get A's and i guess the rest of us are just stupid then - traficante says that its normal to have six people who always get A's five or six who get B's or C's and SEVEN getting fucking D's and F's. obviously the people doing well are the people who teach themselves and are naturally smart. you fucking suck at teaching you bitch! - sorry. like i said i had a bad day and i don't like my math teacher and i try hard but alway seemed to fail in her class. i guess i'm just really really made because i worked so hard to come away with a B for the semester and now i've got a fucking C again. i hate it but i guess i just have to realize that i don't have to do amazing i just have to do okay.
what do you do when you've lost motivation for something? i mean last year i was so motivated in everything i did but now although i still want to achieve the end goal i don't want to work for it, i just want it. but i can't even motivate myself to attempt to get it. and the worst part is last year it was all so easy once i was motivated and i saw how easy it was but now it seems so much harder. so what do i do, how do i re-motivate my self?
sorry for being so vague. i just don't want
to explain exactly what i'm talking about
being motivated to do.
- mee
ps. our school needs a new math teacher to teach H Algebra 2 Period 2. just a little side not.
saturday is the jps concert. march is going to be pure insanity and i can't even begin to explain my schedule - i've decided to take each day as it comes but basically i'm going to be living at the academy again ;) that's always fun. but it's going to be so much harder this year because the 'seniors' and room 20 are gone.
i kind of mad at myself right now too. i got a 65 and 76 on my math tests today and traficante told me i did good. i was about to flip out on her when she said that. since when is getting a D and a C good?? is she on drugs or something?!? i work so hard in that class but it sucks because she can't teach. atleast i'm not the only one struggling. there are six smart people in my class that always get A's and i guess the rest of us are just stupid then - traficante says that its normal to have six people who always get A's five or six who get B's or C's and SEVEN getting fucking D's and F's. obviously the people doing well are the people who teach themselves and are naturally smart. you fucking suck at teaching you bitch! - sorry. like i said i had a bad day and i don't like my math teacher and i try hard but alway seemed to fail in her class. i guess i'm just really really made because i worked so hard to come away with a B for the semester and now i've got a fucking C again. i hate it but i guess i just have to realize that i don't have to do amazing i just have to do okay.
what do you do when you've lost motivation for something? i mean last year i was so motivated in everything i did but now although i still want to achieve the end goal i don't want to work for it, i just want it. but i can't even motivate myself to attempt to get it. and the worst part is last year it was all so easy once i was motivated and i saw how easy it was but now it seems so much harder. so what do i do, how do i re-motivate my self?
sorry for being so vague. i just don't want
to explain exactly what i'm talking about
being motivated to do.
- mee
ps. our school needs a new math teacher to teach H Algebra 2 Period 2. just a little side not.