31 Days Exchange - Sidelong Glances
Title: Sidelong Glances
Day/Theme: 3rd March, 2011; basically, I wish that you loved me
Series: Bleach
Character/Pairing: Orihime, Ichigo; one-sided Ichigo/Orihime, third-person-implied Ichigo/Rukia
Rating: G
Every once in a while, Orihime catches herself missing Kuchiki-san. She knows she's not alone; the whole group misses her. They're battle buddies, after all. Plus, she even went to school with them. It's just...
Most of the time, Orihime is sure Kurosaki-kun misses Kuchiki-san the most.
He doesn't mention her, won't talk about her. When anyone brings it up, he shrugs it off, ends the conversation as if they are talking about the weather.
She knows better.
Sometimes, she catches him glancing at Kuchiki-san's old desk, as if he'll find her there. Sometimes, he'll stare at nothing in particular and there'll be that brief flash of... something in his eyes. (She thinks maybe a part of her knows what it means, but doesn't want to admit it.)
In these moments, Orihime feels that familiar prickly pain in her chest and she hates herself for it.
Of course she wants Kurosaki-kun to be happy. Of course she wants to see Kuchiki-san again. Of course she wants their group of friends to be complete once more. A small voice in her head, however, knows that Kurosaki-kun will only be happy when he can see Kuchiki-san again. Therein lies the problem, because a tiny selfish part of her wants to hate Kuchiki-san for it, but she can't, because Kuchiki-san is her dear friend who's been so kind and so supportive and... and... she just can't bring herself to feel that way.
Every once in a while (more often than she dares to count), Orihime wishes Kurosaki-kun would be like that with her. Then she wouldn't have this problem, wouldn't think these thoughts, wouldn't feel these things. Everything would be simple.
(But maybe that's what hurts the most.)
Day/Theme: 3rd March, 2011; basically, I wish that you loved me
Series: Bleach
Character/Pairing: Orihime, Ichigo; one-sided Ichigo/Orihime, third-person-implied Ichigo/Rukia
Rating: G
Every once in a while, Orihime catches herself missing Kuchiki-san. She knows she's not alone; the whole group misses her. They're battle buddies, after all. Plus, she even went to school with them. It's just...
Most of the time, Orihime is sure Kurosaki-kun misses Kuchiki-san the most.
He doesn't mention her, won't talk about her. When anyone brings it up, he shrugs it off, ends the conversation as if they are talking about the weather.
She knows better.
Sometimes, she catches him glancing at Kuchiki-san's old desk, as if he'll find her there. Sometimes, he'll stare at nothing in particular and there'll be that brief flash of... something in his eyes. (She thinks maybe a part of her knows what it means, but doesn't want to admit it.)
In these moments, Orihime feels that familiar prickly pain in her chest and she hates herself for it.
Of course she wants Kurosaki-kun to be happy. Of course she wants to see Kuchiki-san again. Of course she wants their group of friends to be complete once more. A small voice in her head, however, knows that Kurosaki-kun will only be happy when he can see Kuchiki-san again. Therein lies the problem, because a tiny selfish part of her wants to hate Kuchiki-san for it, but she can't, because Kuchiki-san is her dear friend who's been so kind and so supportive and... and... she just can't bring herself to feel that way.
Every once in a while (more often than she dares to count), Orihime wishes Kurosaki-kun would be like that with her. Then she wouldn't have this problem, wouldn't think these thoughts, wouldn't feel these things. Everything would be simple.
(But maybe that's what hurts the most.)