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So here is an update. I've started to feel suicidal again to the point where I just think about it all the time. I think about what there is for living for and I know there are so many things yet I don't really let myself live. I'm upset all the time, even if I'm smiling I'm most likely unhappy under it all, my mother isn't helping much by telling me it's all for attention and that nothing is wrong with me anymore. I don't know what is wrong really, school ending, teachers fucking being stupid and trying to fail me at everything I do... It's like I can't get motivated enough to do somthing good. I want to, I really do but I just can't find it in myself to do that.
And I think, maybe today is just a bad day...then why have I been this way for the past year...
And I think, maybe today is just a bad day...then why have I been this way for the past year...