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Did I ever tell you all how much I love my Brain and the Blood Brain Barrier that I have. As you can tell... I didn't have a good day. For those of you who don't know the specifics about this, I have something called a blood brain barrier in my head to help keep my brain waves from causing any damage to me. The funny thing is... because of it, I now feel all my brain waves. I know which parts of the brain are used during a task because it pushes against my skull. This can be described in two words... cool and PAINFUL!!!
Now this morning... my head went into High Gear. The worst its been in four years. Only this time I have the blood brain barrier to protect me... I guess thats a good thing because no one would have been able to call 911 if I didn't and I wouldn't be writing this. My brain waves proved to be even to much for the blood brain barrier as it needed to call in back up. THATS RIGHT... IT BORROWED THE CIRCULATION FROM THE REST OF MY BODY!!
My limbs began to turn numb. I could barley move. I found it hard to even close my eyes let alone stand. I was actually as weak as a kitten. I tried to hold a pen and couldn't. The most difficult part was holding my head up. I could not lay down without being in great pain but I struggled to hold my head as it was more than twice the weight from the added blood. The throbbing of the blood alone was extremely painful.
Now with two of my sister in Kingston for Cork and my parents in London (Ontario) helping her move all of her stuff out of her apartment as she leaves for Halifax soon, I was indeed on my own to survive. Did this bother me... not really. It may however bother my parents. Why is this... well it gets a little interesting.
My parents brought my sister home till she moves into her new place in Halifax... With her in her final year of Med School, which is spent working in a hospital, and being on emergency response... she gave me a check up at 11:40pm, when they got home. Oddly enough I began to return to normal around 11:20pm. She did a check up on me and discovered that I was in pre shock the whole day. Had the blood brain barrier taken any more blood from my body... my body would have shut down and not long after, since there was no one around... I may have gone into a coma... I may enjoy sleep but not that much.
Even now, I'm still getting use to my vanes having a normal amount of blood in them and a strong pulse. It EXTREMELY hurts. While my veins adjust to the feeling of the blood and my colour tuns back from a nice shade of blueish... It feels as though I am being stabbed in my arms and my legs.
The good news is... I knew how to take care of myself although I was in such a horrid situation. Even though I didn't know about pre shock. Something out of this interests me though. I can see ever major and minor veins. It was although blue dye was put in them.
Will I sleep tonight... who knows... the blood veins still hurt but one thing is for sure... I am so not going to work tomorrow... resting all day and a friend is gonna come visit me. That which doesn't kill me... you know the rest. It makes me wonder what evils await if I need to be stronger than I already am.
So painful... and what makes it even better is that... I now have my Web CT (trent university virtual) essay late. I didn't get a chance to finish it today... I'm sure they'll understand though. I'll be ok... I guess thats all that matters here.