Life's a bitch..... : |
Soooo My sister left for Japan today for three weeks. Meanwhile I get to stay at home and work at my ultimately depressing job, where I work 8 hour days (wtf.. 8??) and then pretty much die when I get home. Oh wait... I jsut work MORE when I get home, but at least that job I enjoy more. Character design is fun.
But I'm really depressed about life right now... I know I shouldn't be, but I really... really wanted to go to japan. I feel like i've been cheated, or something. Since my sister and I were always planning on going together, and then she goes with her friend instead. She says she'll bring me back things, but come on, I want to GO to JAPAN. Not just for the anime and manga, although that's a plus. I want to see the temples and the landscapes and the cities and all of it. Mt Fuji! I'm not gonna get to travel seriously for another four or five years. I'm going to fucking bat crazy before then. I can't stand being stuck here all the time. Calgary is just sooo... I'm just so tired of Calgary.
Not only that.... but I'm gonna be ALONE for three weeks... i mean, sure some of my friends will be around, though my best friend won't be, she's in Nova Scotia... so i can't even get drunk or high or waheterthefuck... it's no fun going to movies alone. I SHOULD get in touch with my ACAD peeps, but I dunno.. I'm just so uninspired feeling.
And my OTHER friend went to Anime North to make money and meet fucking amazing artists..... I was planning to go, but then things fell through.. and well. Yep. Here I am.
And my parents do nooot even know that I'm really upset about this. I didn't want to mention anything to my sister, it would just be selfish. And mom and dad think, Oh I'll be fine, I'm antisocial, it's cool.
Geh. I guess should be more thankful, less emo.
IN OTHER NEWS. I saw Pirates of the Caribbean 3!! I actually loved it. The second movie, I'm afraid, was utter crap. It was just a stretched out BS plot line so that they could make another movie. But i'm sorta thankful because the third movie was actually really good. : ) There was a bit tooo much Elizabeth, Kiera Knightly can... GUH. GO AWAY. XD Stop stealing the lime light from Jack.
Lotsa good things about that movie though. :D
But I'm really depressed about life right now... I know I shouldn't be, but I really... really wanted to go to japan. I feel like i've been cheated, or something. Since my sister and I were always planning on going together, and then she goes with her friend instead. She says she'll bring me back things, but come on, I want to GO to JAPAN. Not just for the anime and manga, although that's a plus. I want to see the temples and the landscapes and the cities and all of it. Mt Fuji! I'm not gonna get to travel seriously for another four or five years. I'm going to fucking bat crazy before then. I can't stand being stuck here all the time. Calgary is just sooo... I'm just so tired of Calgary.
Not only that.... but I'm gonna be ALONE for three weeks... i mean, sure some of my friends will be around, though my best friend won't be, she's in Nova Scotia... so i can't even get drunk or high or waheterthefuck... it's no fun going to movies alone. I SHOULD get in touch with my ACAD peeps, but I dunno.. I'm just so uninspired feeling.
And my OTHER friend went to Anime North to make money and meet fucking amazing artists..... I was planning to go, but then things fell through.. and well. Yep. Here I am.
And my parents do nooot even know that I'm really upset about this. I didn't want to mention anything to my sister, it would just be selfish. And mom and dad think, Oh I'll be fine, I'm antisocial, it's cool.
Geh. I guess should be more thankful, less emo.
IN OTHER NEWS. I saw Pirates of the Caribbean 3!! I actually loved it. The second movie, I'm afraid, was utter crap. It was just a stretched out BS plot line so that they could make another movie. But i'm sorta thankful because the third movie was actually really good. : ) There was a bit tooo much Elizabeth, Kiera Knightly can... GUH. GO AWAY. XD Stop stealing the lime light from Jack.
Lotsa good things about that movie though. :D