nothin gets in my way, not even locked doors
So before I start on this 5-page "spiritual auto-biography", due in 7 hours, I should probably type away in here.
Okay...forget any inhibitions I had before (uh...a.k.a. yesterday...hah) about moving out in this particular situation. I should not be living with my parents anymore. My pops frustrates me beyond comprehension at times, and I've felt for a good while now that my place is no longer here...that, in order to DO, I'm going to have to just GTFO. Hah. And I know I'd be staying at Karl's pretty much all the days if he had a place to himself, so I'd practically be living there, so shouldn't it just be official and that way our money can come together on household stuffs and I can truly be outta dis house? Why, sure. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and I love this home I love hanging out with people here. I don't have any rules. I have it very very easy here and I know that. But I think perhaps that's one of the reasons I need to get out soon...because it's not good for building my spirit and lifeskills to keep letting my ma hand everything to me. It can be pretty frustrating, actually.
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Heyyyyy so I just got distracted peepin' apartments online annnnnd with one hour already gone I have four lines on my paper and...somethin'. Nothin'.
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Sometimes I get really down on myself and kinda disgusted with how UN-motivated I can be, which makes me even less motivated, which cycles.
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There is so much exciting stuff to sayyyy but I'm too distracted. Ahh. What if all I know how to do is escape? At least I can cook, right? Hah.
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I need a (good) job. I guess.
Okay...forget any inhibitions I had before (uh...a.k.a. yesterday...hah) about moving out in this particular situation. I should not be living with my parents anymore. My pops frustrates me beyond comprehension at times, and I've felt for a good while now that my place is no longer here...that, in order to DO, I'm going to have to just GTFO. Hah. And I know I'd be staying at Karl's pretty much all the days if he had a place to himself, so I'd practically be living there, so shouldn't it just be official and that way our money can come together on household stuffs and I can truly be outta dis house? Why, sure. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and I love this home I love hanging out with people here. I don't have any rules. I have it very very easy here and I know that. But I think perhaps that's one of the reasons I need to get out soon...because it's not good for building my spirit and lifeskills to keep letting my ma hand everything to me. It can be pretty frustrating, actually.
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Heyyyyy so I just got distracted peepin' apartments online annnnnd with one hour already gone I have four lines on my paper and...somethin'. Nothin'.
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Sometimes I get really down on myself and kinda disgusted with how UN-motivated I can be, which makes me even less motivated, which cycles.
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There is so much exciting stuff to sayyyy but I'm too distracted. Ahh. What if all I know how to do is escape? At least I can cook, right? Hah.
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I need a (good) job. I guess.