TOO MUCH F-ING EMOTION!
So today was a surprise Going-away party for Steven. as I was the only local in the group; my job was to #1. make sure that everything went smoothly and everyone was in place. and #2. make sure Steph knew where she was going and to help her not to freak out. I hope I did a good job. The party was fun, but during it I wondered if this was really happening.. I really, really want him to stay, but I know I can't make him stay here if God does not want him here. Then I got really pissed off and left. I guess I am just really selfish. The things I really want, I can't have. ugh. Anyway, after sulking on campus abit I ran into Steph, who then tackle/hugged me. oddly, I felt a little bit better. Hugs always seem to make me feel better. hm... don't dwell on that to much. ok, I guess I'm done here.