No, let's go straight to the update
Sally, why you doing me so bad? I wanna tear myself down,
because it's easy, easier to be hard done by, to cry
then to work, and be all I can be. Prove I'm better then these leaches
All I do is nothing I'm worthless useless lazy.
Oh, I have it so bad, my life is horrible with the constant drinking and playing guitar and sleeping and eating.
Such, a horrible llive for myself and still feel self rightious.
Some time later...
Sally is what I named my guitar that I have up north. She's a big part of my life lately. Hey, maybe too big. I'm think of making a big change in my life . Again, I dunno for the better. I wish. Well, I'm... I don't know what to do. Aha ha. The things my drunk brother yells at me are true. They make me wanna hang myself, but their true. I waste my time and I don't work my hardest. Hell, I don't work hard, I barely work haha ha.
Sometimes I feel like what's the point in trying. I wake up everyday get yelled at. Then I have to figure out how to learn shit then I have to learn or work I dunno. Sometimes I get to learn how to sweep sawdust... Then I go home. I supposably am suppose to teach myself carpentry from a textbook. But instead like the lazy fucker I am. I play guitar instead of reading textbooks because I'm such a mother fucker. what's wrong with me.
Everything I say is bad for everything. I find it hard to do anything constructive anymore. I'm on a downwards slope. My friends can be counted on one hand thats inclding our pets. My parents are gone I dunno for how long.
Yet, guitar is my only love. I feel like it's holding me back. I wqanna destroy it but, I'm scared it will make me more depressed. All I do when I have time is play the mother fucker but, It's all I do that makes me happy. MSN and Tv doesn't. Same with people all I get is Quentin who tears me down. And me who hates me. The pets who I can't speak for and people who hate me who I hate. Lately I feel worthless. Because I don't put in hours and I don't read my textbook and teach myself and I don't clean my house enough and I don't bail enough water and I don't feed my dog enough and I don't exercise enough and I don't do anything. I'm slow to get ready and I'm slow to work and I'm slow to act and speak when I have to.
I should stop guitar. End it. It's not suppose to be a priority. It never was.
I have so many other goals like teaching myself carpentry and exercising. Not to mention cleaning and waking up early.
My worst fear is that I can't do what I say I can do. And To die before I can do what I'm suppose to. Hell, where am I going in life anyway.
My current goals interfere with my current actions. ahhh fuck it. I'll figure it out later, My homework qand teaching myself should be my number one prioritrty.
because it's easy, easier to be hard done by, to cry
then to work, and be all I can be. Prove I'm better then these leaches
All I do is nothing I'm worthless useless lazy.
Oh, I have it so bad, my life is horrible with the constant drinking and playing guitar and sleeping and eating.
Such, a horrible llive for myself and still feel self rightious.
Some time later...
Sally is what I named my guitar that I have up north. She's a big part of my life lately. Hey, maybe too big. I'm think of making a big change in my life . Again, I dunno for the better. I wish. Well, I'm... I don't know what to do. Aha ha. The things my drunk brother yells at me are true. They make me wanna hang myself, but their true. I waste my time and I don't work my hardest. Hell, I don't work hard, I barely work haha ha.
Sometimes I feel like what's the point in trying. I wake up everyday get yelled at. Then I have to figure out how to learn shit then I have to learn or work I dunno. Sometimes I get to learn how to sweep sawdust... Then I go home. I supposably am suppose to teach myself carpentry from a textbook. But instead like the lazy fucker I am. I play guitar instead of reading textbooks because I'm such a mother fucker. what's wrong with me.
Everything I say is bad for everything. I find it hard to do anything constructive anymore. I'm on a downwards slope. My friends can be counted on one hand thats inclding our pets. My parents are gone I dunno for how long.
Yet, guitar is my only love. I feel like it's holding me back. I wqanna destroy it but, I'm scared it will make me more depressed. All I do when I have time is play the mother fucker but, It's all I do that makes me happy. MSN and Tv doesn't. Same with people all I get is Quentin who tears me down. And me who hates me. The pets who I can't speak for and people who hate me who I hate. Lately I feel worthless. Because I don't put in hours and I don't read my textbook and teach myself and I don't clean my house enough and I don't bail enough water and I don't feed my dog enough and I don't exercise enough and I don't do anything. I'm slow to get ready and I'm slow to work and I'm slow to act and speak when I have to.
I should stop guitar. End it. It's not suppose to be a priority. It never was.
I have so many other goals like teaching myself carpentry and exercising. Not to mention cleaning and waking up early.
My worst fear is that I can't do what I say I can do. And To die before I can do what I'm suppose to. Hell, where am I going in life anyway.
My current goals interfere with my current actions. ahhh fuck it. I'll figure it out later, My homework qand teaching myself should be my number one prioritrty.