Bring it!
march 6
2 hour over flows
march 7
1 hour bailing water...
2 hour over flows...
1 hour cleaning shit
I feel alone and hated by everyone
I give myself too much credit like anyone would notice me
My apologies I am a little drunk.
No, you know what no apologies, i"m sick of feeling bad
fuck everything, I should start living for me
I always wanna take care of shit an make sure shit's perfect
Fuck it. I want shit to go my way then fine, so shall it be
And if not, fine just as well. I'm tired so tired.
I want to do some real carpentry
I'm tired of bailing grey water and defrosting shit
and I'm tired of accepting what has to be done
I don't care fuck the world, I hope it implodes.
because it doesn't matter what i'm doing
I get insulted and harassed no matter what I do
because I am apparently worth shit
Fuck everything Fuck it in the eye.
So tommorrow I go to work, I go to war... Dont look back
I'm sick and I'm Tired I give up they win
Who wins if I put in my time and I get out
The castle is burning, it's over, and I'm smart enough
to get what I came for and to leave.
Fuck this shit... Yeah, why should I kill myself.
am I not intitled to what everyone else gets?????
If my life and time is gonn be burned away like it's worthless
than I should be able to excape while I can.
I want real work, I wann be accomplished...
thats why I hate it here I hate here, I hate the people.
I'm not learning shit, nothing. This ship is sinking,
And It's not my fault so fuck it.
I felt like shit all day long... and I didn't even do any hard work.
any work at all this isn't a real job not since Jason left
Fuck fuck fuck fuck. Fuck Baker Lake~~~!
I want to punch Baker Lake in the nose. In the Mouth.
I'm so hateful, and Alone, I dunno I donno I don't know.
What should I do? Just mark down my hours from here on in?
That's all I can do... That's it I can't even learn shit.
Life, health, art, love, power, skill, and money is all time.
Time I'm wasting I should just get my hours my, my,
my fake experiance. my wasted life... my sacrifice.
I have a mission... ... ... No, that's not it...
I... Need... A... MISSION.
I hate life. I hate living, and I hate people.
I need a goal. To get in and to get out.
I should start living for me and me alone.
I am all that matters. I am the only one.
If I am successful then life is good all is good.
I am all that has ever mattered.
I am all that has ever mattered.
My mission has been set I shall accomplish it.
and It shall be for the glory of me.
I love me, I matter most. I am all that matters.
Sleep early an fuck it, go to work and fuck it
drink heavy and fuck it, brush my teeth and fuck it
put in work and fuck it, get my license and fuck it
do my PCDI and fuck it, get organized and fuck it.
I am William, I am strong, I will survive.
Fuck the world may it die of global warming
I'll be a lone wolf devouring the living and surviving
You think you can take me think again.
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And I dont care who likes me and who doesn't
I just don't fucking care anymore.
It's all about survival ain't nobody liable
Am I working hard? Am I healthy??????
Bullshit! Am I artistic? ... Yeah like it matters
I'll master music later. Like I couldn't If I wanted to.
Now all I have to do is easy work and run my daddy to death
It's easy thats what everyones been doing since I was a baby
Fuck it, I'm done worrying. He should have cut this,,, this,,
Retard kug sister fucking backstabbing dogfucking town off.
years ago. but he didnt. it's not my concern. its not my fault.
so... fuck it... and fuck people in general.
they're assholes and prostitutes and they care about them
so I care about me. fair enough. Fair enough. Yeah,
I will survive. It's what I do bes and I do just fine.
alone or not. I am an island. I am a GOD.
If life won't help me, I'll help myself. With what I know.
I am strong. I AM STRONG!!!
And I will serve myself. YES I must escape
everyone else serves themselves. and I will too
I matter. I am not unimportant. I refuse to do this shit.
I will find work good work and have hours of work.
even if its bullshit dad should have kept his shit in order.
I'm sick of guitar, I'm sick of food, I'm sick of lonliness
I only want order... that's all I want... just work a job anything...
something to do. a Real job. Work! experiance. love,
I dont care I am just sick of wasting my time.
being sick and wasted and hated and tortured.
If my times gonna be wasted I might as well forece time into the books
Everyone else is raping the company might as well mimic.
I have to survive. I can't burn out I can't die completly
I already lost my sex drive at 20 might as well not lose my
career, my ambition, my skill, my youth, my time, my time...
I feel raped, then harassed, then pushed aside.
What's the use. Hatrred Anger... FURY!!!!!!!!!
RAGHH!!!!!! I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it
RAGH RAGH RAGHRAGHRAGRRRRAAAGGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!
Time... I can't afford to lose any more.
I'm in my prime. I'm young and strong and idealistic.
I'm being wasted on assholes who hate me.
I'm bailling grey water and defrosting sewage.
I'm having nightmares, and living alone,
and I'm driven by hate and anger and lust.
I'm falling apart, I just can't keep this up anymore.
I feel like dying right here.
I can't live in this place. I can't get along with anyone.
Loveless, Lifeless, Meaningless and Angry.
That's why I have to live for me because noone else will.