Emotional Outbreak
I never felt so happy
I never felt so sad
never felt so much shame
I never felt so mad
What do I forget
Who do I leave out
What will i regret
It makes me wants to Shout
http://www.memoriesfade.com/audio/rare.html
Everytime I come back down here it's harder. It's a sadder, bigger celebration, it's more hard-core. The things I see. Spinning wheels, failure, and success. The things I hear. Heartbreak and relationships. The people who touch me. Fear of the uncertain future, What future awaits everyone. Theres a real feeling of helplessness I get. I feel like a ghost.
So tommmorrow morning I leave. I'm gone. I might as well not even try to talk to people on msn. I feel like theres almost no point. When I'm up there and talking to my friends down here. I dunno, it's well, futile, and so far from actually talking face to face. Sure I get to rehearse and rewrite. It feels so less open. esspecially with the kind of things I want to say...
I've made a real break through with my music on this visit. I hope that I can continue my success whilst up North. I even wrote a song which I will not disclose over the internet. I have to learn to play it. I've tryed to learn how to feel what I sing while I was hear with much success. Next I must learn playing and singing at the same time.
I found on this trip 've had alot more negative emotions as well as positive emotions. And hard decisions. I wish I had all the time in the world. but I don't. I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I've been just going with the flow. This contrast of acceptingness I recieved from this community is so different then the one I grew up in. The one I'm leaving to support. Normally that would make me angry, but I just couldn't care less. I really don't care.
So I vanish from Winnipeg. Leaving behind a Jacket and my emotions. No not really my emotions will come with me, and they will be suppressed. they will come out in my music. I fear my inspiration will vanish as well.
Huh.
I never felt so sad
never felt so much shame
I never felt so mad
What do I forget
Who do I leave out
What will i regret
It makes me wants to Shout
http://www.memoriesfade.com/audio/rare.html
Everytime I come back down here it's harder. It's a sadder, bigger celebration, it's more hard-core. The things I see. Spinning wheels, failure, and success. The things I hear. Heartbreak and relationships. The people who touch me. Fear of the uncertain future, What future awaits everyone. Theres a real feeling of helplessness I get. I feel like a ghost.
So tommmorrow morning I leave. I'm gone. I might as well not even try to talk to people on msn. I feel like theres almost no point. When I'm up there and talking to my friends down here. I dunno, it's well, futile, and so far from actually talking face to face. Sure I get to rehearse and rewrite. It feels so less open. esspecially with the kind of things I want to say...
I've made a real break through with my music on this visit. I hope that I can continue my success whilst up North. I even wrote a song which I will not disclose over the internet. I have to learn to play it. I've tryed to learn how to feel what I sing while I was hear with much success. Next I must learn playing and singing at the same time.
I found on this trip 've had alot more negative emotions as well as positive emotions. And hard decisions. I wish I had all the time in the world. but I don't. I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I've been just going with the flow. This contrast of acceptingness I recieved from this community is so different then the one I grew up in. The one I'm leaving to support. Normally that would make me angry, but I just couldn't care less. I really don't care.
So I vanish from Winnipeg. Leaving behind a Jacket and my emotions. No not really my emotions will come with me, and they will be suppressed. they will come out in my music. I fear my inspiration will vanish as well.
Huh.