Growth, and a request for help. (ETA comments)
So, as you may know, I'm all sorts of f*ed in the head. All sorts.
The fun bit is that most everything that's wrong with me derives from one problem: I don't feel I'm worth anything.
Now, i know that's not true, but that doesn't mean i Believe that it's not true. As such, a good friend has requested I write myself a list of proof that i Am indeed a worthy person. The problem is that due to the nature of my disease, i'm having a hard time finding things.
...and i'm out of ideas. This is where you come in, my friends. I need your help proving to myself that I am a good person. With enough proof, i'll believe it, and then be that much better at it.
So it comes to this, my friends: What makes me a good person? Why are you friends with me?
The fun bit is that most everything that's wrong with me derives from one problem: I don't feel I'm worth anything.
Now, i know that's not true, but that doesn't mean i Believe that it's not true. As such, a good friend has requested I write myself a list of proof that i Am indeed a worthy person. The problem is that due to the nature of my disease, i'm having a hard time finding things.
- I am intelligent. Smarter than fully 99% of the population.
- I am there for friends when they need me; I drop most anything I'm doing to take care of a friend in need, even those who mightn't do the same for me.
- I am moral, or at least ethical; i do my best to not hurt anyone unless to do so is in some way the right thing.
- I am constantly trying to improve myself, not content with myself staying at any level and not improving
- I have an entertaining sense of humor.
- Good people trust my judgement.
- I am Friendly, even to random people I've never met.
- I respect peoples opinions, and discuss with them rationally (at least most of the time).
- I don't take advantage of people or situations (in the malicious sense).
- I am loyal.
- I care about things.
- While the rest of the world is trying to take care of themselves and theirs, I care about others, too.
- I share of myself, my talents, my resources.
- People come out of the woodwork to help me when i really need it, and they wouldn't if I weren't worth it.
...and i'm out of ideas. This is where you come in, my friends. I need your help proving to myself that I am a good person. With enough proof, i'll believe it, and then be that much better at it.
So it comes to this, my friends: What makes me a good person? Why are you friends with me?