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hi everyone. i think its finally time for an update by me. its been a long time, i know. ok. so i should start with getting a few things out there that need to be said. i know some of you were pretty pissed at me after my quick visit to sharon back in september, and i'm really sorry. i just wasn't ready to go back yet. the way i handeled it was immature and stupid, and i know that and i'm sorry. its not that i did want to see any of my sharon friends. i did, and i still do. i miss you guys. i just kindof suck at showing it. and i know i'm still not ready to go back, but i'm getting there. by thanksgiving, hopefully, i'll be ready. this might not make any sense to you, but it does for me. its just that i was never truly happy in sharon. if you were close to me you knew that i really had no emotion. i never ever cried. i'm not going into the why behind that now, but there are reasons for it. anyways, in limiting those emotions, i think i limited all emotions, so i couldnt be completely happy, even if i tried. (way to be a shrink, caroline). but when i came here, that all changed, and i became a real person with emotions and everything. imagine that. i'm just your everyday pinoccio. but yeah. when i went back to sharon i could instantly feel myself closing up again, and i couldnt stand it. make sense? so i'm sorry if anyone felt that i hated them or any sharon people
fire alarm just went off. that was cold. anyways:
what i'm trying to say is that my recent cutting myself off from sharon has nothing to do with anyone. its just a wierd thing between me and the town. i know i'm a psycho. i've accepted that. please try to understand.
moving on!
i miss you guys. and i havent talked to most of you in pretty much ever, and i think thats dumb. i've been incredibly busy lately. i just finished working on urinetown, which was absolutely amazing. but now that i'm more free, you might be getting a random phonecall or two. i still am extremely happy here, although i have gotten over the initial shock of "oh my god i love this place!" but yes.
recent entries by people have made me really sad. i'm so sorry some of you arent as happy as you could be. things will get better. they always do.
drood people! good luck! i know the show will be fantastic, and i'm sorry i'm missing it, but i'll be sure to get a full update. i'll see the next show, i promise.
ok, i think thats enough livejournaling for me. my door is always open to visiters, you'll have fun, i promise. i'll see you all at thanksgiving. and happy halloween kids. dont go too crazy.
~Caroline
fire alarm just went off. that was cold. anyways:
what i'm trying to say is that my recent cutting myself off from sharon has nothing to do with anyone. its just a wierd thing between me and the town. i know i'm a psycho. i've accepted that. please try to understand.
moving on!
i miss you guys. and i havent talked to most of you in pretty much ever, and i think thats dumb. i've been incredibly busy lately. i just finished working on urinetown, which was absolutely amazing. but now that i'm more free, you might be getting a random phonecall or two. i still am extremely happy here, although i have gotten over the initial shock of "oh my god i love this place!" but yes.
recent entries by people have made me really sad. i'm so sorry some of you arent as happy as you could be. things will get better. they always do.
drood people! good luck! i know the show will be fantastic, and i'm sorry i'm missing it, but i'll be sure to get a full update. i'll see the next show, i promise.
ok, i think thats enough livejournaling for me. my door is always open to visiters, you'll have fun, i promise. i'll see you all at thanksgiving. and happy halloween kids. dont go too crazy.
~Caroline