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i was thinking today about how socially i am almost as low as you can go. everyone i see is better than me in almost everything i am. there is always someone who is better at math, a better artist, makes better cds, is better looking, is me only better. i like to think i have a sense of humor but there will always be someone who is funnier than i am. more clever and witty. i got a knot in my throat today when i was at work because i realized the people there are much more gathered with who they want to be. theres the guy who is a complete asshole but all the girls want him and he has accepted that is just him. there is the smarty who is at the uofa and graduation with some major that i dont even know how to pronounce. and theres the waitress who is just waitressing. the mexican that needs to work to support his family. they are all better then me because they know who they are. im not a straight up asshole, i am not working because of the work, i am not coming home to someone everynight in my own house, i am not smart. but what if there is only one other person that thinks you are. besides your own kid, but i have no kids to think i am superman. maybe i was meant to be medium, at neither extreme. the song you only sorta like to listen to every now and then, or the movie that you liked enough to buy but you watch the least. a hole in one when you have already lost.
"I tire of this dream I found was real"
i think i would be good at writing songs, well lyrics but then thats just poetry. and nobody cares about poetry.
"I tire of this dream I found was real"
i think i would be good at writing songs, well lyrics but then thats just poetry. and nobody cares about poetry.