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well, for the past four days, since thursday evening, i have all of a sudden gained three children, a dog, a car and a house. luckily, they were all temporary of course, but it didn't feel so temporary. i am so happy that i don't have kids. i feel so drained from this weekend. so many crying children, shouts, screams, falls, lunches and dinners and breakfasts to make, bad words, kicking, etc etc. children are too much for me to handle.
i can babysit these three kids for a few hours at a time. i can never again adopt them for a short while so their parents can go to a house opening in florida and have a vacation. that's what grandparents are for.
i got 375 for it...which is nice but i mean i don't even care about money anymore. i just feel like this was such a good way to see what my life would be like if i ever had a kid. i would never ever have time to myself. never. especially with three kids. when one kid leaves for school, and another is taking a nap, you seem to think you can lay down or get work done, but you forget about the third child, who wants you to play and play and play and not leave her side because she has ike separation anxiety. she never wants you to put her down, you always have to hold her. then you have the little boy who is enough trouble to take care of alone, forget the other two. he threw stuff, hit his sisters, stuck his tongue out, spilled many a glass or two, broke a few things, hit me....ugh their parents really are big on the whole discipline thing. and i can't exactly discipline them myself, they're not my children. i mean i wasn't going to hit them or anything like that, i would never do that. i just mean...you can only warn a child so many times that if he throws that handful of mulch he'll end up in bed before you know it just has no effect on him anymore.
being able to drive their car helped a little. being able to get out of the house was a very big help, but having to get all the kids buckled up, make sure you have everyone's stuff, make sure you have food and snacks and changes of diapers and band aids and money to buy food so i don't have to make yet another meal when we get home....ugh. on top of that i had to be even more careful driving than usual. when it's just me in the car, eh, whatever...but with three little kids it's like, i can't go over 15 mph because i don't want to risk getting into an accident, etc etc.
saturday morning i woke up and was going out on the back porch to throw away the trash and i glanced into the pool...and a big huge squirrel decided to die at some point that night...so i had to keep the kids away from the pool and back yard so they wouldn't see it, plus have my dad go and get it out...he told me he thinks it was a mother squirrel who was pregnant because it was such a huge squirrel. ugh. it was so gross...i can't get the image out of my head.
yesterday was terrible. friday and saturday were bad...but i mean they weren't terrible. i got through them. yesterday i was ready to pull my hair out. no wonder val always wants me to babysit. she can't stand more than a couple hours with her kids either. she must love the time from 8pm til 6 or 7 the next morning, when she finally has time to herself. god that's another thing, waking up at 6, or 7...or, like yesterday, 5:30. i was so tired and so annoyed i started crying when zachary spilled soda all over my bag, my book, nicole's picture's (she then threw a fit and started scream-crying because her pictures were ruined)...i couldn't take it anymore. i went nuts. i started crying. poor poor zachary i didn't mean to yell at him and get mad, but i just couldn't take anything anymore. no one even seemed to notice how frazzled i was. we went to the baseball game which was a bad idea to begin with...me just watching all three in a big place is tough to do. especially just zachary. because nicole wants me to hold her in her lap the whole time and won't let me put her down, and allie likes attention so she'd do little things that she knew annoyed me so i'd pay more attention to her...and zachary...ugh. he shared his lollipop with lauren's dog haha...he spilled their waterbottle over everything...we went to the car to get our waterbottles for everyone, and zachary and allie wouldn't listen to me to stop running so of course zachary fell and scraped his knees...so then he was very upset...very. upset. cried and cried and cried. thunderstorms that night, three very scared children all crying....ugh
i am SO just completely drained from this weekend. every muscle of me is sore for some reason. i can't relax my body. i can' sleep in. i have a thousand and one bug bites. i am tired and cranky. i need a nap.
i can babysit these three kids for a few hours at a time. i can never again adopt them for a short while so their parents can go to a house opening in florida and have a vacation. that's what grandparents are for.
i got 375 for it...which is nice but i mean i don't even care about money anymore. i just feel like this was such a good way to see what my life would be like if i ever had a kid. i would never ever have time to myself. never. especially with three kids. when one kid leaves for school, and another is taking a nap, you seem to think you can lay down or get work done, but you forget about the third child, who wants you to play and play and play and not leave her side because she has ike separation anxiety. she never wants you to put her down, you always have to hold her. then you have the little boy who is enough trouble to take care of alone, forget the other two. he threw stuff, hit his sisters, stuck his tongue out, spilled many a glass or two, broke a few things, hit me....ugh their parents really are big on the whole discipline thing. and i can't exactly discipline them myself, they're not my children. i mean i wasn't going to hit them or anything like that, i would never do that. i just mean...you can only warn a child so many times that if he throws that handful of mulch he'll end up in bed before you know it just has no effect on him anymore.
being able to drive their car helped a little. being able to get out of the house was a very big help, but having to get all the kids buckled up, make sure you have everyone's stuff, make sure you have food and snacks and changes of diapers and band aids and money to buy food so i don't have to make yet another meal when we get home....ugh. on top of that i had to be even more careful driving than usual. when it's just me in the car, eh, whatever...but with three little kids it's like, i can't go over 15 mph because i don't want to risk getting into an accident, etc etc.
saturday morning i woke up and was going out on the back porch to throw away the trash and i glanced into the pool...and a big huge squirrel decided to die at some point that night...so i had to keep the kids away from the pool and back yard so they wouldn't see it, plus have my dad go and get it out...he told me he thinks it was a mother squirrel who was pregnant because it was such a huge squirrel. ugh. it was so gross...i can't get the image out of my head.
yesterday was terrible. friday and saturday were bad...but i mean they weren't terrible. i got through them. yesterday i was ready to pull my hair out. no wonder val always wants me to babysit. she can't stand more than a couple hours with her kids either. she must love the time from 8pm til 6 or 7 the next morning, when she finally has time to herself. god that's another thing, waking up at 6, or 7...or, like yesterday, 5:30. i was so tired and so annoyed i started crying when zachary spilled soda all over my bag, my book, nicole's picture's (she then threw a fit and started scream-crying because her pictures were ruined)...i couldn't take it anymore. i went nuts. i started crying. poor poor zachary i didn't mean to yell at him and get mad, but i just couldn't take anything anymore. no one even seemed to notice how frazzled i was. we went to the baseball game which was a bad idea to begin with...me just watching all three in a big place is tough to do. especially just zachary. because nicole wants me to hold her in her lap the whole time and won't let me put her down, and allie likes attention so she'd do little things that she knew annoyed me so i'd pay more attention to her...and zachary...ugh. he shared his lollipop with lauren's dog haha...he spilled their waterbottle over everything...we went to the car to get our waterbottles for everyone, and zachary and allie wouldn't listen to me to stop running so of course zachary fell and scraped his knees...so then he was very upset...very. upset. cried and cried and cried. thunderstorms that night, three very scared children all crying....ugh
i am SO just completely drained from this weekend. every muscle of me is sore for some reason. i can't relax my body. i can' sleep in. i have a thousand and one bug bites. i am tired and cranky. i need a nap.