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and for that one week i had a flutter in my stomach, it was there i didnt care about the past anymore. that ended as quickly as it came.
sitting there at the resteraunt tonight i saw a flash on the tv screen and i couldent talk anymore, something came over me. i think it was like that dream you had. the rest of the night i couldent stop blankly staring at things, and people. they must have thought i had gone crazy. we finished up, i payed the bill and drove back to the boat i didnt even want to get out when we got there, i knew the conversation that was coming. i wanted to tell your slurring drunk face what i really thought.i dropped my keys on the floor and you laughed just like you fucking laughed all night why do people treat me like that. i shouldent hate this much, its not you its me, you didnt do anything wrong. i stopped for gas and the girl behind the counter asked if i was gay because my shirt said something about a rainbow. i said yes and you shouldent ask people that.
yesterday we sat in a circle and talked about how everyone fucked up and how everyone is helping each other to get by. i walked outside to call you but it was too early. you werent awake yet. i hadnt gone to sleep until 4.
riding on the rails of a rollercoaster yelling dear god, oh dear god with you. that was a fun day, i didnt mean to yell at you so much. i am a bad driver and i dont pay attention.
sitting there at the resteraunt tonight i saw a flash on the tv screen and i couldent talk anymore, something came over me. i think it was like that dream you had. the rest of the night i couldent stop blankly staring at things, and people. they must have thought i had gone crazy. we finished up, i payed the bill and drove back to the boat i didnt even want to get out when we got there, i knew the conversation that was coming. i wanted to tell your slurring drunk face what i really thought.i dropped my keys on the floor and you laughed just like you fucking laughed all night why do people treat me like that. i shouldent hate this much, its not you its me, you didnt do anything wrong. i stopped for gas and the girl behind the counter asked if i was gay because my shirt said something about a rainbow. i said yes and you shouldent ask people that.
yesterday we sat in a circle and talked about how everyone fucked up and how everyone is helping each other to get by. i walked outside to call you but it was too early. you werent awake yet. i hadnt gone to sleep until 4.
riding on the rails of a rollercoaster yelling dear god, oh dear god with you. that was a fun day, i didnt mean to yell at you so much. i am a bad driver and i dont pay attention.