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Perhaps it is a crisis that I am having.
I wake up so lonely that every evening I beg him to stay with me for one more night so that, please, please god, I will not be alone yet.
I am so free and headed towards so many tremendous things. Tremendously weighty things that I am arguably not remotely prepared for, although everyone keeps reassuring me that I am.
This is it. I will never again be living at home, I will either be lost or "living with my parents." I was not told that this massive leap into semi-adulthood, would be so frightening. Zero financial responsibility, but a huge threat hanging over my head. There will be no more mistakes, you must function according to certain terms and conditions, and if you fail, you will be totally and inexplicably abandoned. This is no one's fault, life is hard, suck it up kid.
I have it so, so good.
I wake up so lonely that every evening I beg him to stay with me for one more night so that, please, please god, I will not be alone yet.
I am so free and headed towards so many tremendous things. Tremendously weighty things that I am arguably not remotely prepared for, although everyone keeps reassuring me that I am.
This is it. I will never again be living at home, I will either be lost or "living with my parents." I was not told that this massive leap into semi-adulthood, would be so frightening. Zero financial responsibility, but a huge threat hanging over my head. There will be no more mistakes, you must function according to certain terms and conditions, and if you fail, you will be totally and inexplicably abandoned. This is no one's fault, life is hard, suck it up kid.
I have it so, so good.