down again
I really feel bad when I'm not around people. This summer I got used to being with people. And, I guess, now I'm getting lonely even more easily. I did before too, but I think it hits me harder now, or it's just the time that takes it's toll. I mean, it's all over the 'I'm tired of being alone' thing.
Last week I went to a concert with a friend. That was a concert I was originally going to enjoy with him, but since he disappeared I didn't have much hope anyway. We came earlier (again didn't have to buy tickets later on, hihi). I was feeling down that day. As I do today, or maybe less, since the day before brought me up a little bit, but still down. It was a good night. I was kind of able to speak my heart's content out (it's good thing alcohol makes you don't care about anything). The response I got was nothing I would have expected, it really surprised me to no end. But it was the good 'we're not alone in this' feeling for both of us. Drunk or not I really felt like taking, I just had to. And that night I really felt like getting drunk (which I had to suffer for next day ^^;). But I want more night like that (money >__>).
I'm tired of all this. I want there so be someone to support me at a time like this. And not with some shitty 'you're thinking too much, cheer up'. Someone whom I could phone and who could make me feel better. But no one gives a shit.
Last week I went to a concert with a friend. That was a concert I was originally going to enjoy with him, but since he disappeared I didn't have much hope anyway. We came earlier (again didn't have to buy tickets later on, hihi). I was feeling down that day. As I do today, or maybe less, since the day before brought me up a little bit, but still down. It was a good night. I was kind of able to speak my heart's content out (it's good thing alcohol makes you don't care about anything). The response I got was nothing I would have expected, it really surprised me to no end. But it was the good 'we're not alone in this' feeling for both of us. Drunk or not I really felt like taking, I just had to. And that night I really felt like getting drunk (which I had to suffer for next day ^^;). But I want more night like that (money >__>).
I'm tired of all this. I want there so be someone to support me at a time like this. And not with some shitty 'you're thinking too much, cheer up'. Someone whom I could phone and who could make me feel better. But no one gives a shit.