vacation.
I DON'T FUCKING WANNA GO! Tomorrow I'm leaving to France for 9 or 10 days, whatever. i packed all the shit today. I don't care what I take and what I'll leave here. It's 9 day not a month, but still, I'd rather go for a month leaving somewhere on my own and having even the tiniest access to the internet to check my mail and all that.
I'm not going there voluntarily. My mother is making me. She says I'm not doing any housework, I'm not talking to her, I'm not doing anything for her (which all is true) so that once in a year I can do something for her 'cause she wanna go to fucking France. And she won't go alone, she doesn't have any friends interested in traveling. And I'm left with no options. I tried to fight at the beginning, but noooo, she has to win, and I have to go. I HATE French. I've been learning it for over 3 years, I know t on a quite good level, so it's not the matter that I don't like it 'cause I don't understand it, I do. I just HATE it. I don't hate it all the time though. Sometimes it's fun to be able to read something in French, but it's my own choice, and not when I'm surrounded by this awful language and made to speak. My speaking French sucks right now. Too much English, I have to think long before I get the vocabulary in the right language in my head.
And on top of that it's the worst time possible. When I finally accepted that I have to go, I thought that since I'd be in Paris maybe I'll meet up with nekozumi-chan, but she's going on her vacation at the same time. And there are a lot of other things that make me want to go even less. Trouble Check on TFL to do, problems with DMC3 fl moving to ma as a new owner, the course I was writing about lately, Polcon.
My mother of course thinks she's making it for me as well, that we're leaving. But I'd be so happy if she went alone and I'd have the apartment all free for me and I could invite some friends. I've been going on such trips since 1998, COME ON, I'M ALMOST 19, I SHOULD BE FREE TO DECIDE WHETHER OR NOT I WANNA GO. I'M NOT FUCKING INTERESTED IN VISITING SMALL TOWNS AND SUCH. I would love to go abroad with my friends, on our own. Without her. Next year, there's no way I'm going with her again. 10 years it's enough. I've already seen most of the Europe. Now I don't wanna go anywhere but Japan, US or Canada, unless it's with friends purely for fun and maybe to meet some foreigners.
I'm not going there voluntarily. My mother is making me. She says I'm not doing any housework, I'm not talking to her, I'm not doing anything for her (which all is true) so that once in a year I can do something for her 'cause she wanna go to fucking France. And she won't go alone, she doesn't have any friends interested in traveling. And I'm left with no options. I tried to fight at the beginning, but noooo, she has to win, and I have to go. I HATE French. I've been learning it for over 3 years, I know t on a quite good level, so it's not the matter that I don't like it 'cause I don't understand it, I do. I just HATE it. I don't hate it all the time though. Sometimes it's fun to be able to read something in French, but it's my own choice, and not when I'm surrounded by this awful language and made to speak. My speaking French sucks right now. Too much English, I have to think long before I get the vocabulary in the right language in my head.
And on top of that it's the worst time possible. When I finally accepted that I have to go, I thought that since I'd be in Paris maybe I'll meet up with nekozumi-chan, but she's going on her vacation at the same time. And there are a lot of other things that make me want to go even less. Trouble Check on TFL to do, problems with DMC3 fl moving to ma as a new owner, the course I was writing about lately, Polcon.
My mother of course thinks she's making it for me as well, that we're leaving. But I'd be so happy if she went alone and I'd have the apartment all free for me and I could invite some friends. I've been going on such trips since 1998, COME ON, I'M ALMOST 19, I SHOULD BE FREE TO DECIDE WHETHER OR NOT I WANNA GO. I'M NOT FUCKING INTERESTED IN VISITING SMALL TOWNS AND SUCH. I would love to go abroad with my friends, on our own. Without her. Next year, there's no way I'm going with her again. 10 years it's enough. I've already seen most of the Europe. Now I don't wanna go anywhere but Japan, US or Canada, unless it's with friends purely for fun and maybe to meet some foreigners.