i am unreasonably outraged right now.
so i'm re-reading the golden compass (found my copy; it was actually on my bookshelf at home, alphabetized by author's last name as it ought to be) and i've recently reached the third-to-last chapter (easy reading, handicapped-accessible). and i remember what happens at the end of this book. i knew that this eventually happened, but i couldn't remember in which book until just now, or who did it to him or why or what, specifically, took place.
i'm just now at the very beginning of the second-to-last chapter and right now i want to pwn somebody in the face.
my current dilemma is whether to read the last two chapters of this book tonight and risk not being able to sleep because of my frustration (running through ways this ending could have been avoided in my head) or to wait until tomorrow and risk not being able to sleep for the same reasons as just mentioned and because i want to finish the damn book.
i think i will finish it presently and follow up with some quality tv, adult swim style. and i will hopefully be able to sleep after that.
other than that, i just want to say that audiobooks are not nearly as satisfying as actually reading. my god. i love reading. so much. and i hadn't had any time for anything recreational until - frankly - today. so i'd forgotten how lovely a pastime it is.
i'll be disappointed when i finish this book. what will i read next? i suppose i could go to the library (i only own the first book) and finish up re-reading the whole of the series. but the last two books are secondarily wonderful and primarily disappointing, because they begin to focus more on will and less on lyra. and i love lyra as a character more. i hate it when she becomes dependent on will. i prefer willful (please pretend that there exists no possibility of a pun within this sentence) lyra silvertongue.