Now my Heart Stumbles on Things I don't Know...

[toris_tori]

Who: Sindre and Toris
When: Tuesday, late evening
Where: Nearby bar (aka: Mae is too busy to look up specifics) 
What: Sindre catches Toris at his worst.

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[talks_to_nisse]

Sindre sighed in defeat as he scanned the Winchester. He'd had Wilm's shirt with him again today, but by the time his day ended and he had met him in the library, the shirt had completely slipped his mind. Again.

And so, determined to return it, he stopped by the Winchester on his way back from Madame Maime's. He had set an alarm on his phone just to remind himself. Therefore, Wilm was not actually at work.

About to leave, Sindre spotted a familiar face at the bar and frowned. He hadn't envisioned Toris as the type to be in a bar on a weekday. Certainly not alone, already well into his cups. Curious, Sindre came up behind him and dropped a hand onto his shoulder.

"Feliks has driven me to drink before," Sindre opened instead, keeping his tone light, "but I never thought he'd break you." Which was true--he and Toris had agreed a long time ago that Toris was the better man with regard to Feliks Situations. "What happened?"

[toris_tori]

Jumping when the hand came down on his shoulder, Toris turned in the direction of a familiar voice, blinking a few times before realizing who it was. "Sindre....?" He asked, though it was obvious that was who it was. He rubbed one palm against his forehead, messing up his hair that was already in disarray and trying to forget that his head was starting to ache. He rarely came to the bar so he didn't expect to see anyone he knew...just his luck.

At such a straightforward question, Toris flinched a little and kept his face turned away from the blond, "Nothing." He lied through his teeth, though he looked anything but, "Everything's....fine." his voice broke a little on the last word and he took his cup again (missing once before finding it) and taking another drink, hoping to avoid talking.

[talks_to_nisse]

Snorting, Sindre waved the bartender over and ordered a beer before responding to that blatant lie. He wasn't about to do this completely dry.

"I'm friends with some first-class bullshiters," he responded conversationally. "You're nowhere near their league."

Nodding to the bartender as he returned with the beer, Sindre took a drink before continuing. "And even if you were, the simple fact that you're here, like this, belies everything else you say. So you may as well come clean."

[toris_tori]

Turning a slight, but wavering, glare at Sindre before turning back to his drink in frustration, watching the liquid swirl around for a moment before collecting his thoughts (though they were still fuzzy and seemed to be in all directions...this night had probably been a bad idea).

Letting out a long sigh before pushing the hair out of his eyes in an attempt to focus better that didn't work. "I messed up." he offered vaugely, and then he let out a humorless laugh that sounded unnatural even to his own hears. He shook his head, hair falling back into his face and his smile from laughing falling back into an unhappy expression, "I seem to do that a lot."

And in his own mind, that's exactly it. He'd distanced Raivis and still continued to avoid him, and he hadn't been able to keep Kim in Liberty...

/waves short post flag

[talks_to_nisse]

"Your hair is about to fall into your drink," Sindre pointed out idly. He took another swig of his beer as he waited for Toris to continue, and he barely contained a sigh when it became apparent that Toris had finished speaking.

This conversation wasn't going to go anywhere at this rate. "How did you mess up?" he prompted.

XD

[toris_tori]

Hmmm, trust Sindre to be worried about something like that, then he pushed his hair behind his ears to prevent that from happening. Some part of his brain knew he wasn't being very forthcoming with information....guess that didn't change regardless of how sober he was. Sindre was someone he knew...but wasn't particularly close to...maybe that would make sharing a little easier.

Letting out a shuddering sigh he kept his gaze turned away while admitting, "She's...leaving. Kim's leaving and I should've been able to do something about it. I mean we are...were dating." Past tense seemed so abrupt somehow.

[talks_to_nisse]

Sindre could sympathize with that, to an extent. He never had someone he was dating leave for good, but leaving in general, he was familiar with.

"I'm sorry your girlfriend's leaving," he started with. "I know it sounds trite, but I am." He took another drink as he thought of what to say. "Did she say why she was leaving?"

[toris_tori]

"Family reasons." Which was understandable, always. He wasn't going to fault her for that, but that didn't make him miss her any less...and she wasn't even gone yet...sad. Everything about his current state just felt depressing in some way. Drinking seemed to enhance that...damn he thought this would make him forget for a little while.

...So much for that plan. Note to self: drinking didn't help problems, just made them worse.

[talks_to_nisse]

Sindre nodded at that. "Well, if she's leaving for family, and if her leaving has nothing to do with something you've done, it can't be your fault," he reasoned.

"So as much as hearing 'You had nothing to do with her leaving' hurts, it is true. But at the same time...there is no way that you failed."

[toris_tori]

"Hmmm." Toris just let that fill the silence for a moment before taking a drink. True, he wasn't foolish enough to think that her leaving had been his fault (though he still wish he could've made her stay somehow) but the issue with Raivis? That was entirely built on his failure....his constant failure even.

"I guess you're right." Toris responded, hoping that maybe if he just agreed the conversation could be over.

Tonight is a night of shortposts

[talks_to_nisse]

Sindre waited a few minutes, enjoying his beer, while keeping an eye on how fast Toris consumed his beverage. Toris had capitulated far easier than expected; Sindre wouldn't be surprised if the other man was holding something back.

Still too quickly, Sindre decided. If that had been it, Toris likely would have slowed.

When Toris was not forthcoming, Sindre nudged him. "And the rest of it?"

Yay short posts~!

[toris_tori]

Thrown a little off balance by the nudge, Toris gave Sindre a look that clearly said he didn't appreciate that and straighten himself out once more. "Not much else to say." He shrugged, trying his best to ignore the small Latvian that decided to invade his mind. "We decided to break up, agreeing that a long distance relationship probably wouldn't work, and that's about it." End of that particular relationship, and working (or not doing anything, now that he thought about it)on destroying another one that was just as important to him.

"That's the end of my sad tale, isn't it?" He looked at Sindre with a glazed over feel to his eyes, not completely there mentally, and he hummed one finger tracing patterns on the counter with no direction, "People never stick around, you know?" He wasn't actually sure if the other knew but he went on, "They either go on their own or you push them away. The result's always the same."

Hells yeah

[talks_to_nisse]

"End of that tale, maybe, but not the end of it all," Sindre pointed out, ignoring Toris' look. "You're too on edge for that to be it."

Listening until Toris finished, Sindre thought about what the other said. "Not quite true," he contested. "Many, even most will, that's true. School, work, life...people drift. But the rare few will, and that's something."

"And besides," he continued, "Your tirade mentioned two situations. Kim's going on her own--so who do you think you pushed away?"

[toris_tori]

...Damn, Sindre was far too smart for his own good, Toris decided with a small grimace to himself. If he was in better condition maybe he wouldn't be giving information away like this, giving away his life story like it was some cheep tragedy to be picked off a shelf and read at any time. His hand gripped the mug a little tighter but he didn't signal for another one, since the drinks were the ones getting him into this kind of trouble in the first place

[talks_to_nisse]

As he reached out and grabbed a handful of napkins from further down the bar, Sindre finished off his beer. He idly debated getting another, but he wasn't planning on sticking around after Toris either left or cussed him out. Besides, one of them should stay sober.

Handing the napkins to Toris, Sindre thought about that for a moment. "But you still haven't tried," he said. "You two are family. It's never easy to get rid of that for good, whether you want to or not. So how about you try talking to him before writing the whole situation off?"

He shrugged. "If it's your fault, it's up to you to start to make it right. And maybe he won't listen on your first try. Keep it up, though. And if after a few attempts he still won't speak to you...then it's on him. You tried, and made it clear you want to fix things."

[toris_tori]

Getting rid of his tears quickly and nodding his thanks to Sindre when he was given the napkins as make-shift tissue, and finally managing to stop crying (again) he took a shaky breath and paused when the other started talking. Toris felt his mind clearing up some (though not enough to see very well....or was that the tears?) and his eyes stung irritatingly, but he did his best to listen