When you say nothing at all...

[lolo0636]

Just blah and grr all at the same time. I am so sick of this shit. I get in my head you know who I want and I am content with who I have then the Casey rears his ugly head. It's almost liek he knows when I m starting to get over him. I hate it. I mean don't get me wrong I love him to death. It's just hard to talk to him after everything that

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'Twas I

[anonymous]

The person the first reply is from is not important.. What does one do? When the same person shows you his best and at or around the same time I am guessing or not long after showed you his devilish don't give a fuck attitude. From what I know about this "Scott" He is one that is Fare skinned and fair eyed as well as Fair Tempered, and easy going. Yet, at the sametime "Mr. Scott" is a complete walking mess that has the wool pulled over every ones eyes. I will have to give it to him, he's clever and very deceptive. Be one that doesn't hold that against him. Look at all hes been thought since his childhood his sister too for that matter. I must say it wasn't pleasant for either of them. I would say from my own point of view that "Mr. Scott" will give anyone anything he has as long as he has your trust, doesn't even ask why or for how long, just "here ya go, is that enough" ( Alllright )

On a lighter note make your choices carefully, For I know that he is looking to settle or kinda settle. Have a home more or less to come home too to have the family life. I am sure it will be quite sometime before he has anyone attached, in time I am quite sure.

Have you spoke to him lately? Last I heard he was going out of town for a few weeks or rather in and out of town til June wiring up some damn Food Lion .. harris Teeter... one of those kinda stores...

Didn't mean to stray from the subject so far. Just thought you would like to know his where abouts, is all.

I do want to know something though it bugs me.. I read some of your archives to see if this was the same Scott I know of. Yet he ends most of his entries with numbers 50805 what the hell does this mean.. its not your birthday its not his ( I dont think ) and I know its not your little girls either. So I give up what the hell does it mean . ???? Just for a curious mind.

BTW... dont worry about my dealings with Mr Casey.. I know him for quite some "Time" Nevertheless, we kept in touch and still do on occasion. Mrs. lauren. You couldn't have found a better person. Yet, I don't know if hes mentally strong enough anymore, voices and all. So you be the judge of him and his mental stability. I haven't spoken to him in about month or so ..

Enjoy the Rest of your eveing..

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[lolo0636]

Well, I am going to go with Emily? Because she, well, you are the only one that knows this much about the sujbect. Also 50805 is between Scott and I. It's special and no one, not even the nosey, need to knwo what it stands for. All that matters is we know... So who are you? you can give advice but you should know me well enough not to trust a random person. Whoeveer you are. E-mail me suzieqlive2004@yahoo.com...

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[lostindastarz]

I think I'm going to chime in on this for a moment. Since I'm one of the few people who knows a decent amount of whats going on.... I agree that if someone is going to attempt to speak on something, they should say who they are. Because it does in fact matter. If you know so much and wish to speak up, you should say whom you are. Makes things easier. I'll leave it at that for now.

Second issue... I don't think that person whom is speaking is Emily. Granted I havent talked to her in months but I'd like to think I know her well enough to say if she had something to say, she'd speak up and have no problem saying it was her. I could very well be wrong though. But I wanted to take a second to say what I thought.

Next, I will give my reguards to whomever decided to come speak up for Scott. Can't ever look down upon someone for coming to the aid of someone important to them. I'd honestly just suggest you say whom you are or speak with Lauren and or Scott directly...

Okay I'm done with what I felt like saying.... Cya

It seems I have opened up a pandoras box., of sorts

[anonymous]

Honestly it doesnt matter who I might be,. Only that I am trying to give meaningful advice. Granted its not wanted nor, is it my place to say so. Just thought I would give my two cents worth. Also, would I get such honest reactions if you knew who i was? More than likely not. I prefer "Raw Emotion" and honesty. You really think i am Scott himself, thats impressive but I am not flattered. Hes a quite more Evil spirtied than myself. I feel sorry for anyone that would happen to really piss him offf... I do not mean to send the wrong impression and say he is a violent person, just when hes pissed off. Its sorta like when a person blacks out then faint or pass out. This crazy SOB keeps on going tearing up shit and people that get in the way. Trust me, Bastard broke my nose and leg. guess I should have left the coffee be. Thats another story for another day.

All I am trying to say is that Scott's a good dude I amd just tired of seeing women playing with his heart strings and emotions.. Lets face it, ever since he came home hes , how can i put it. " Fragile"

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[lolo0636]

hummmmmmmmm Not sure what to say.....

Hummm Okay

[saint811]

Its seem i have missed alot since I have been away. So you and I have spent some "Time" together. eh? Well that narrows it down to umm lets say 300 to 1000 people. Yet how do you konw so much about lauren and my sister for that matter. I could careless how you konw me or what you konw about me but it does concern me that you konw where the hell i am and How you found out..
So either you are very close to the family and have found my computer i left behind, and helped yourself to it and the information saved on it.
honestly i have spoken about lauren to very few people in that great detail. matter of factly only Two .. One is my sister which I love and adore. Two Randy, which is a friend that you need to know nothing about. Yet, if you aquired this informantion how i think you got it... then you know a great deal.. I can tell you one thing Twas I... I am forgot more about myself and family than you can ever possibly learn in your lifes quest. '
Also, if you and I are so close then why not tell me who you are and stop playing head games with people that I care slot about. and two that I love in great reguard.. even though i think its onesided love from both parties.. To sum my life up right now in a few words, Twas I. Its like I have been bathed in blood and left to fend for myself in the den of wolves.
Lets get real Twas I, I have no one that really cares what happens to me. Live or die its all the same. Still along and the rate things are going I will probably die that way. what can i say "Shit happens". but mostly to me... Dont get me wrong Lauren and Emily, i am not depressed or pissed off and the world. I am thankfull every morning i wake up and take that first breath.. I have endured more than you can imagine and will keep going like the engerizer bunny. You ponder why? because so many people say i can't I do it for spite and to prove everyone else wrong. Just because I can..

Also, Twas I. you were right on one accord I am getting the feeling of settling down crawling up my backside. and Yes "In time " I will do alot of things, including die.

Yet breaking your nose and leg. That I have done to a fare share of people, Mostly the people I spent so much "Time" with. if your who i think I am ask Terrel about my temper ifyou know me so well. I am sure he'll be glad to tell you, Oh thats right i guess he would have to scribble it down now wouldn't he..... So Twas I .. all i have to say is what goes around comes around and even i move like the pages of a history book. even I come full circle once in a while. to say it where you understand it, sooner or later I will make it back to richlands Va. So tread lightly my friend.

I "Reckon" I am finished.

Lauren if you read this, sometime this evening .. call me if you wish .. Also, it appears you have spoken to my sister. Tell her I said hello and I am doing fine as well as i love her

Yet another day is done

50805 and I do konw what it means...

Re: Hummm Okay

[lostindastarz]

Man oh man what am I missing now as well? I've kept my distance from everyone for a while now for my own various reasons... But this much I assure you. Meddle in the lives of Lauren, Scott or Emily, and a side of me that no one cares to see will come out. I'll be brief... The three above mentioned people have all impacted my life in a great way at some point or another. And if Anyone ever crosses any of them reguardless of where I am, or how my life is... I will be there for them. End of Story.

Anyhow I must take lil miss Karina out to dinner now because she's 7 and hungry. So I'm going to go. Lauren, hope things are going along for you. And if you all need me, just ring the cell. Simple enough. Take care