(Untitled)

[lolmafialol]

OHO.

Headcanon meme

Yuusuke, Kazu, Yamamoto, Colonello, Cloud, Natalia, Shinji, Darc, Raiden, Mustang.

Ask away! Cloud's link goes to a previous headcanon post.

PS Anyone can jump me anytime.

Comments

[lolmafialol]

Answering this a MILLION YEARS LATER.

I'll give him around... late end of 17 years old. It was in fact a kill mission. To kill a REALLY EVIL FUCKER, a "this guy is only around for four chapters" fucker but still it's a skeevy mission. Yamamoto was alone for it, or at least, he accepted the solo mission by himself. He's actually the first of them . . . other than MukuroChrome and Hibari. . . to officially kill someone on a mission (Gokudera's probably killed some fucker with his bombs before but ya know, in GAG CHAPTER SENSE - he's never been on assassin mission). Tsuna wasn't expressly aware of what he was doing right away (The mission was offered/explained by Reborn), but Gokudera found out (and was. ...reserved. Was the sword idiot really gonna do it? He'd been stubborn for so long. Did he miss something? He hadn't even killed anyone himself yet. etc etc) and eventually (once Yamamoto was gone) Reborn told Tsuna.

Tsuna was UNHAPPY And worried and DDD:, and Reborn was HARSH WITH HIM, because some fuckers deserve to die and Yamamoto chose to take this and he was an assassin, DEAL WITH IT. But he also mentions Yamamoto might not be ready, and may have taken the mission to see if it could be resolved another way (it's kind of a. . . situation. REAL SPECIFIC RITE, but it's not so cut and dry, yet Reborn's pretty adamant about it, so Yamamoto took it partly because he wanted to see for himself.) Tsuna eventually settled on being more worried for Yama's life than for whether or not he was gonna kill someone, but he was OCCUPIED, so Gokudera followed up. GRUMBLING. NOT WORRIED AT ALL. Fucker getting ahead of him, he'd make the kill himself if he had to!. . .

As he goes through the building which is a VERY BLOODY SCENE he gets more and more worried, he finds the body of the guy who's the target, very definitely cut down by a sword. Yamamoto's not there! He runs back out and it's raining, and finally catches up to Yamamoto who's all bloody and surprised to see him.

And he's honestly okay! Hurt a little, he'll scar from it on his upper shoulder. He chose the mission, and chose to finally turn his sword around and make the kill for the Vongola. It's a little anticlimactic, after holding back for so long, and from all the heat Squalo and Reborn gave him over the years, he would've thought it'd be more dramatic than that, ha ha.

Still, it's not a nice thing. And Gokudera catches it, mainly because - it's one of those moments where Yamamoto does something that he didn't expect, so he pays attention. After Yamamoto returns and reassures Tsuna (despite JESUS EYES or maybe because of them :( he's ttly willing to kill for his jesus), and Reborn pats him on the cheek, Gokudera is the one that sees the most impact. Because being reliable for Tsuna is very important, and Gokudera's a smart kid who knows Yamamoto damn well from all that perpetual time together.

Yamamoto and Gokudera thus sorta wordlessly start helping each other through that kind of thing, either just by being there or more direct comfort. They very willingly handle all the kills (o-other than mukuro and hibari) the Vongola dish out, so they can use their own judgment so that Tsuna can always trust them to spare someone who deserves it, so he can have confidence when they don't. They are an AMAAAZING team.

Anyway, I think it's something like this because it's really very - mafia. Yamamoto's moments where his choice to not kill are highlighted - specifically with Squalo and Reborn - are unique to him. It's not a universal issue - Tsuna gets heat for not being hard enough, and Gokudera gets more heat for needing to open up, but neither of them get specifically "you need to make kills." That's always been Yamamoto. And it's always been kind of private, his own personal induction into the mafia world. Something like this, a hit, where he made his own decision to do it - killing not a NOBODY, he sure as hell talked down that it was anticlimactic and he'll never forget it, but it's not a boss fight - is definitely what I see for his first kill. And he's hit deeply, a little off for a bit, but he was ready and he made his choice. He's a natural-born assassin after all.