Better than you ever felt it
Title: Better Than you ever Felt it.
Pairing: PetexPatrick
Summary: Patrick reflects on Life, Love and Lyrics.
Author:
lollyphants
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: No, Just, no.
I can’t help but stare at you, Pete, it’s like if I don’t see you, I’m not, for lack of a better word, complete. Like the world itself doesn’t make sense if I’m not looking at you. But sometimes I feel frustrated, almost cheated, because practically the entire female population feels just like me, but then I realise that is simply impossible; no one could ever love you as much as I do.
Yes love. It’s such a funny word, but we say it to each other everyday and it somehow has lost it’s meaning, it becomes just another word. But words are your thing aren’t they? You wrote me straight into your heart and kept me there with your metaphors and similes.
‘I only keep myself this sick in the head, cause I know how the words get you (off)’
They sure did get to me, and sometimes I wonder if you do it on purpose. If you exaggerate and make me think you’re ‘sicker’ than you actually are.
I always thought that from the second we met, that you wanted the world to think you were a bit eccentric, but the Best Buy incident proved me wrong.
I hated you after that. I smiled and pretended everything was fine just like you did, but I thought I’d never forgive you.
You had always said I was the one thing that kept you sane, but that night you were far from sane, was I not enough anymore?
But then you wrote me ‘Of all the gin Joints’. I was almost sad when you re-wrote it for the album, but I realised I am the only person who has the original. I’ve had it under my pillow from the day you gave it to me. ‘ I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive, now I only waste it dreaming of you’ It was almost an apology, the closest I am ever going to get, so I took it.
Everything important you ever said to me was through song. ‘Of all the gin joints’ apologised (almost) and ‘Hum Hallelujah’ explained, ‘Sometimes we take chances, sometimes we take pills, I could write it better than you ever felt it’ those lines sent chills down my spine the second I read them, and you were there, sitting across from me nodding along as I read.
‘I could write it better than you ever felt it.’ To some this may seem an arrogant statement, but they don’t get what ‘it’, is, sometimes I’m not sure that I do either.
The last record, Infinity on High, it was our entire life together compressed into forty-seven minutes and fifty one seconds.
‘We're broken down on memory lane Alone together, we're alone’
Some people need photos to make their memory lane, some need videos and other people letters, all we need are our songs. They’re our memories good and bad all together, for the world to see, and let them see it. They can stare at them just like I’ll stare at you. ‘I could write it better than you ever felt it.’ I can’t help but thinking you wouldn’t have written that if you knew how I felt when I looked at you.
Pairing: PetexPatrick
Summary: Patrick reflects on Life, Love and Lyrics.
Author:
lollyphants
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: No, Just, no.
I can’t help but stare at you, Pete, it’s like if I don’t see you, I’m not, for lack of a better word, complete. Like the world itself doesn’t make sense if I’m not looking at you. But sometimes I feel frustrated, almost cheated, because practically the entire female population feels just like me, but then I realise that is simply impossible; no one could ever love you as much as I do.
Yes love. It’s such a funny word, but we say it to each other everyday and it somehow has lost it’s meaning, it becomes just another word. But words are your thing aren’t they? You wrote me straight into your heart and kept me there with your metaphors and similes.
‘I only keep myself this sick in the head, cause I know how the words get you (off)’
They sure did get to me, and sometimes I wonder if you do it on purpose. If you exaggerate and make me think you’re ‘sicker’ than you actually are.
I always thought that from the second we met, that you wanted the world to think you were a bit eccentric, but the Best Buy incident proved me wrong.
I hated you after that. I smiled and pretended everything was fine just like you did, but I thought I’d never forgive you.
You had always said I was the one thing that kept you sane, but that night you were far from sane, was I not enough anymore?
But then you wrote me ‘Of all the gin Joints’. I was almost sad when you re-wrote it for the album, but I realised I am the only person who has the original. I’ve had it under my pillow from the day you gave it to me. ‘ I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive, now I only waste it dreaming of you’ It was almost an apology, the closest I am ever going to get, so I took it.
Everything important you ever said to me was through song. ‘Of all the gin joints’ apologised (almost) and ‘Hum Hallelujah’ explained, ‘Sometimes we take chances, sometimes we take pills, I could write it better than you ever felt it’ those lines sent chills down my spine the second I read them, and you were there, sitting across from me nodding along as I read.
‘I could write it better than you ever felt it.’ To some this may seem an arrogant statement, but they don’t get what ‘it’, is, sometimes I’m not sure that I do either.
The last record, Infinity on High, it was our entire life together compressed into forty-seven minutes and fifty one seconds.
‘We're broken down on memory lane Alone together, we're alone’
Some people need photos to make their memory lane, some need videos and other people letters, all we need are our songs. They’re our memories good and bad all together, for the world to see, and let them see it. They can stare at them just like I’ll stare at you. ‘I could write it better than you ever felt it.’ I can’t help but thinking you wouldn’t have written that if you knew how I felt when I looked at you.