To with you Final Chapter
Title: To be with you (Final chapter)
Pairings: Ryo/Jin, PIN
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin has to make a decision.
Chapter 3
Lying on the bed that Tomo and I have slept in the night before, I wrapped my whole body into a ball with my trembling hands as I cried.
I didn’t know how or when I got back home, the home that Ryo-chan and I bought together. After getting rid of my bag, I slumped onto the bed, and started trembling as I thought about the events that happened today, and about Tomo’s words.
Today’s discussion was a settlement. A settlement of which person I choose. I chose Ryo-chan. I knew the answer to this a long time ago, but my selfishness just wouldn’t let Tomo go. That was why it hurt so much more to break Tomo and mine’s relationship apart. But I had to do it today. The sooner I break us apart, the more painful it would be. I needed Tomo before, desperately. But now that I left Tomo, I need to accept the fact and live on without Tomo by my side. The thought of this made my heart ached.
Everything in my life was falling apart. The moment my lips left Tomo’s, it was the end. I made a decision, and it was final. Even though this would be hard of both Tomo and I, we both had to accept this decision. Now that Tomo’s free of me, he can find someone else to love, and be happy.
I buried my face into the velvet white pillow to suppress my sobbing, but it wasn’t much help. My cries can still be heard, and the agonizing cries that reflected back to my ears was still too loud.
I have never felt so alone. With Tomo gone because of my decision, and Ryo away in Osaka, I have never been so alone in my life. I hated this feeling. This aura around the room was suffocating me, and I kept on crying.
I clutched onto the globe necklace Ryo gave me, hoping that this action will ease my loneliness.
Ryo-chan is all I have left, and I felt somewhat content when I thought of his name. I can live by without Tomo, as long as Ryo-chan is by my side. Maybe some day Tomo can find a true love, and I will be happy for him. But I cannot stand the thought of Ryo-chan leaving me. If Ryo-chan left me, I would die. My mind and body would stop functioning, and I will collapse.
“R-Ryo-chan…” I sobbed out his name.
Now that Tomo is gone, I have a need to clutch onto Ryo-chan even more. I needed him.
If one day, Ryo-chan’s love for me were to disappear, I too, would probably disappear as well, because I live for Ryo-chan. Maybe then my selfishness will get into action again, and clutch onto Ryo-chan, even though he wont love me anymore.
I loosened one of my hands to wrap my body again. With one hand squeezing my body tightly together, another hand on the globe necklace, I sobbed out loud.
It was then when I felt a pair of strong, warm arms wrapping around my fragile and shaking body.
“Jin…” It was Ryo-chan’s voice. I twisted my body and wrapped my shaking arms around his body. I clutched onto Ryo-chan’s warm body desperately. I felt so protected and well that moment. It was as though there was never a reason for my tears. Everything was at ease the moment I see Ryo-chan’s face. Ryo-chan’s existence made me feel well and…whole.
I buried my face completely into Ryo-chan’s embrace. I sobbed my heart out as Ryo-chan’s arms tightened around my body.
His grasp on me was so strong, as if the embrace was a little looser, I would be gone.
“It’s gonna be okay… Everything is going to be fine… I love you, Jin, with all my heart.” Ryo placed a gentle kiss on the top of my head.
His words seem to have an effect on me, as I stopped shaking bit by bit.
After what it seemed forever, my whole body stopped shaking, and my sobs stopped. I lifted my head upward to look at Ryo-chan’s eyes. There was nothing but love and care in those beautiful eyes of his.
“I love you, Jin.” Ryo confessed again as he wiped the tears from the corner of my eyes.
“I love you too, more than I realized.” I lifted my arm up in Ryo-chan’s embrace to touch the globe necklace.
“I thought you were in Osaka?” I asked quietly.
Then, I reached over to caress his necklace too. The gold part of the necklace was shining so bright that it hurt my eyes.
“I came back, for you.”
Ryo-chan grabbed both my hands with one hand, and used his other hand to secure my chin to place. He leaned down to kiss me.
The warmth of Ryo-chan’s lips was like marijuana; I kept on lusting on wanting more and more from Ryo-chan. This feeling was addictive. It seemed that Ryo-chan was feeling the same way as well. He slipped his tongue and danced inside my mouth.
We rolled over, and now Ryo-chan was on top of me.
The lust and love in Ryo-chan’s eyes were obvious, his face was crimson red, and he was panting.
“Jin…I can’t live without you. If one day you decide to be with Tomohisa, I wouldn’t blame or hate you. I love you so much, Jin, that it hurts. Every part of my mind and body aches whenever I see you with Tomohisa. Everyday, I live under fear that you might leave me. I love you, Jin. I love you so much.” Ryo-chan confessed his love for me over and over again, which secured my heart with protection.
I lifted my head up to kiss Ryo-chan’s lips briefly, then parted again to speak.
“I love you too, and you only, from now on. Ryo-chan, I wouldn’t blame you either if you were to leave me. I would understand, because of how selfish and ugly I am. But please, if you decide that I am not worthy to be with you anymore one day, tell me. I cannot bare it if you were leave me so abruptly.” My eyes started watering again as my vision became blurry, and the last words of my sentence came out as a sob.
Ryo-chan gently kissed my tears away, and caressed my cheeks.
“I won’t ever leave you, don’t worry about that, because I love you too much to leave you. My body and mind wont let me. Jin, I have waited so long of you to say you love me and me only. Those words made me feel secure and whole. Jin, you are the only person who can make me whole, so please, don’t ever say that you are ugly or selfish. Everyone is selfish and ugly in some ways, but that’s okay. Because I love you, all those selfishness meant nothing to me. Jin, you will always be the most beautiful and pure person in my eyes.” He kissed the corner of my lips as my lips were trembling again from the touch of his lips.
Then, I leaned forward, lusting for Ryo-chan’s lips on mine. Our lips crashed together again, and the tension was as high as ever.
Our hands were clutching onto each other as if the moment we let go of each other will be the end of the world.
When our lips parted, we were both panting hard, with reddish slowly taking over our cheeks.
“Jin, may I?” Ryo-chan wrapped one arm around my waist, and another on my partially undone shirt.
Just when I thought my face couldn’t burn redder at the moment, I was wrong. I could feel my face burning up as I nodded, and leaned in to kiss Ryo’s lips, giving him permission.
Ryo-chan took charge of our kiss again, while he was unbuttoning my shirt. He traced his kisses down my chin to my collarbone.
The moment he touched my collarbone with his lips, my whole body trembled, and I let out an embarrassed moan.
“Mmm…R-Ryo-chan…D-Don’t touch my collarbone…” I winced backward when Ryo purposely kissed my collarbone again.
“Hmm…I love it when you moan under me.” Ryo-chan’s evil smile crept up on his lips, as he nudged my collarbone. Again, I winced, and moaned out loud.
Satisfied with my moan, he continued kissing down my body. When he reached my stomach, he began to unbuckle my pants.
I winced at that moment, but then relaxed immediately. I was ready to give myself to Ryo-chan. More than ready, I wanted him to have me.
As if he can hear what I was thinking, he comforted me. “It’s okay, I won’t hurt you. I want to be with you, Jin. I want you to belong to me.” Ryo-chan kissed my lips to comfort me, and it worked. My tensed body was completely relaxed.
That night, we were finally together, in mind and body. Our silver and gold necklace were entwined, and we were truly happy.
“I love you, Ryo-chan.”
“I love you too, Jin.”
END~
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Pairings: Ryo/Jin, PIN
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin has to make a decision.
Chapter 3
Lying on the bed that Tomo and I have slept in the night before, I wrapped my whole body into a ball with my trembling hands as I cried.
I didn’t know how or when I got back home, the home that Ryo-chan and I bought together. After getting rid of my bag, I slumped onto the bed, and started trembling as I thought about the events that happened today, and about Tomo’s words.
Today’s discussion was a settlement. A settlement of which person I choose. I chose Ryo-chan. I knew the answer to this a long time ago, but my selfishness just wouldn’t let Tomo go. That was why it hurt so much more to break Tomo and mine’s relationship apart. But I had to do it today. The sooner I break us apart, the more painful it would be. I needed Tomo before, desperately. But now that I left Tomo, I need to accept the fact and live on without Tomo by my side. The thought of this made my heart ached.
Everything in my life was falling apart. The moment my lips left Tomo’s, it was the end. I made a decision, and it was final. Even though this would be hard of both Tomo and I, we both had to accept this decision. Now that Tomo’s free of me, he can find someone else to love, and be happy.
I buried my face into the velvet white pillow to suppress my sobbing, but it wasn’t much help. My cries can still be heard, and the agonizing cries that reflected back to my ears was still too loud.
I have never felt so alone. With Tomo gone because of my decision, and Ryo away in Osaka, I have never been so alone in my life. I hated this feeling. This aura around the room was suffocating me, and I kept on crying.
I clutched onto the globe necklace Ryo gave me, hoping that this action will ease my loneliness.
Ryo-chan is all I have left, and I felt somewhat content when I thought of his name. I can live by without Tomo, as long as Ryo-chan is by my side. Maybe some day Tomo can find a true love, and I will be happy for him. But I cannot stand the thought of Ryo-chan leaving me. If Ryo-chan left me, I would die. My mind and body would stop functioning, and I will collapse.
“R-Ryo-chan…” I sobbed out his name.
Now that Tomo is gone, I have a need to clutch onto Ryo-chan even more. I needed him.
If one day, Ryo-chan’s love for me were to disappear, I too, would probably disappear as well, because I live for Ryo-chan. Maybe then my selfishness will get into action again, and clutch onto Ryo-chan, even though he wont love me anymore.
I loosened one of my hands to wrap my body again. With one hand squeezing my body tightly together, another hand on the globe necklace, I sobbed out loud.
It was then when I felt a pair of strong, warm arms wrapping around my fragile and shaking body.
“Jin…” It was Ryo-chan’s voice. I twisted my body and wrapped my shaking arms around his body. I clutched onto Ryo-chan’s warm body desperately. I felt so protected and well that moment. It was as though there was never a reason for my tears. Everything was at ease the moment I see Ryo-chan’s face. Ryo-chan’s existence made me feel well and…whole.
I buried my face completely into Ryo-chan’s embrace. I sobbed my heart out as Ryo-chan’s arms tightened around my body.
His grasp on me was so strong, as if the embrace was a little looser, I would be gone.
“It’s gonna be okay… Everything is going to be fine… I love you, Jin, with all my heart.” Ryo placed a gentle kiss on the top of my head.
His words seem to have an effect on me, as I stopped shaking bit by bit.
After what it seemed forever, my whole body stopped shaking, and my sobs stopped. I lifted my head upward to look at Ryo-chan’s eyes. There was nothing but love and care in those beautiful eyes of his.
“I love you, Jin.” Ryo confessed again as he wiped the tears from the corner of my eyes.
“I love you too, more than I realized.” I lifted my arm up in Ryo-chan’s embrace to touch the globe necklace.
“I thought you were in Osaka?” I asked quietly.
Then, I reached over to caress his necklace too. The gold part of the necklace was shining so bright that it hurt my eyes.
“I came back, for you.”
Ryo-chan grabbed both my hands with one hand, and used his other hand to secure my chin to place. He leaned down to kiss me.
The warmth of Ryo-chan’s lips was like marijuana; I kept on lusting on wanting more and more from Ryo-chan. This feeling was addictive. It seemed that Ryo-chan was feeling the same way as well. He slipped his tongue and danced inside my mouth.
We rolled over, and now Ryo-chan was on top of me.
The lust and love in Ryo-chan’s eyes were obvious, his face was crimson red, and he was panting.
“Jin…I can’t live without you. If one day you decide to be with Tomohisa, I wouldn’t blame or hate you. I love you so much, Jin, that it hurts. Every part of my mind and body aches whenever I see you with Tomohisa. Everyday, I live under fear that you might leave me. I love you, Jin. I love you so much.” Ryo-chan confessed his love for me over and over again, which secured my heart with protection.
I lifted my head up to kiss Ryo-chan’s lips briefly, then parted again to speak.
“I love you too, and you only, from now on. Ryo-chan, I wouldn’t blame you either if you were to leave me. I would understand, because of how selfish and ugly I am. But please, if you decide that I am not worthy to be with you anymore one day, tell me. I cannot bare it if you were leave me so abruptly.” My eyes started watering again as my vision became blurry, and the last words of my sentence came out as a sob.
Ryo-chan gently kissed my tears away, and caressed my cheeks.
“I won’t ever leave you, don’t worry about that, because I love you too much to leave you. My body and mind wont let me. Jin, I have waited so long of you to say you love me and me only. Those words made me feel secure and whole. Jin, you are the only person who can make me whole, so please, don’t ever say that you are ugly or selfish. Everyone is selfish and ugly in some ways, but that’s okay. Because I love you, all those selfishness meant nothing to me. Jin, you will always be the most beautiful and pure person in my eyes.” He kissed the corner of my lips as my lips were trembling again from the touch of his lips.
Then, I leaned forward, lusting for Ryo-chan’s lips on mine. Our lips crashed together again, and the tension was as high as ever.
Our hands were clutching onto each other as if the moment we let go of each other will be the end of the world.
When our lips parted, we were both panting hard, with reddish slowly taking over our cheeks.
“Jin, may I?” Ryo-chan wrapped one arm around my waist, and another on my partially undone shirt.
Just when I thought my face couldn’t burn redder at the moment, I was wrong. I could feel my face burning up as I nodded, and leaned in to kiss Ryo’s lips, giving him permission.
Ryo-chan took charge of our kiss again, while he was unbuttoning my shirt. He traced his kisses down my chin to my collarbone.
The moment he touched my collarbone with his lips, my whole body trembled, and I let out an embarrassed moan.
“Mmm…R-Ryo-chan…D-Don’t touch my collarbone…” I winced backward when Ryo purposely kissed my collarbone again.
“Hmm…I love it when you moan under me.” Ryo-chan’s evil smile crept up on his lips, as he nudged my collarbone. Again, I winced, and moaned out loud.
Satisfied with my moan, he continued kissing down my body. When he reached my stomach, he began to unbuckle my pants.
I winced at that moment, but then relaxed immediately. I was ready to give myself to Ryo-chan. More than ready, I wanted him to have me.
As if he can hear what I was thinking, he comforted me. “It’s okay, I won’t hurt you. I want to be with you, Jin. I want you to belong to me.” Ryo-chan kissed my lips to comfort me, and it worked. My tensed body was completely relaxed.
That night, we were finally together, in mind and body. Our silver and gold necklace were entwined, and we were truly happy.
“I love you, Ryo-chan.”
“I love you too, Jin.”
END~
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