I miss my mom.
I miss her so much. If she were here, non of this would've happened. I'd be able to go up to people, while they were talking about their moms, and I could talk about mine. Now I'm even more like a freak to everyone because I don't have a mom like them. I already feel like I'm an immortal. My mind is like a fucking time-bomb. I think about killing people. I HATE THAT! I think about killing myself, too. What the hell is wrong with me? Maybe Bowen was right, I am a mistake. Maybe everyone was right, I'm just too much of a freak. I can't take this anymore. I'm going insane. I want to run away some place. I hate this. I just want to die sometimes. I hate going to school. People laugh at me. They make fun of me. They call me a demon child. They tell me to burn in hell. They call me a freak. A pyscho. Some people like to throw things at me. Or they just are fucking ass holes to me. I'm sick of fucking Brittany. She drives me in fucking sane. She thinks that she's "all that" because she hangs out with a fucking freak. She can go shove a dildo up her ass. I have no friends. I don't need her. I swear to god, I think she's gone lesbo. She's all like, YESSSS! to me. No thank you. I don't like black girls. Her ass is HUGE. and ewwwwwwwwwwww! She's not my type. Yeah, I think I might be, kinda, bi. Not so sure. But Elizabeth said it was okay to like girls, a little bit. I dunno. I've been hit on by a lot of girls before. Hell, I've been hit on by some of Bowens girl friends. Like Anna. I'd rather be with her then Brittany, any DAY! I can't wait until Jr. High. Haha. If Brittany goes there, I'm going to ignore her compeletly. She has dumb ass Dominique. Fucking posers! I need to stop cussing. Oh well, it's who I am. It's kinda weird, I like some rap, not all, just some and Ryan gets all ass hurt like someone just shoved a watermelon up it. He's like, "sooo, when did you start liking rap?" or whatever. And I was like, "what?" or something and he was like, "well, I think it's fucking weird that you started liking it around the same time I did." and he was like, "Pretty fucking weird, huh?"
and I was like, "Nooo. I liked it before I even knew you liked that type of music." and well, you get the point. I use to have like, a huge crush on him. But he's a fucking dick if you're not going out with him. Or if he doesn't like you. He just wants girls to fuck him. Yeah, he told me he wanted to fuck me. Kinda odd. I've been told that from older boy friends. Like, lets see here, Colton, Bowen, Ryan, Anvil, haha, Uhhh...Aaron, Skyler?, wait no, not him...well, there's more. But ewww! I'm only 12! But they don't care, do they? No. Darren's an asshole sometimes. He always punches me in the booooooob. ALWAYS! How would he like it if I punched him in his non-grown boobies. Ha. He wouldn't. Brittany said that she thinks Darren likes me. EWWW! He does not! He's like, 21 and I'm 12! He's nine years older then me. AHHHHHH! 0_o. What the hell? I'm listening to LimpBizkit. It's kinda catchy. But pretty gay. Hey, it's not my burned CD. It was Jayme's she gave it to me.
Whatev. Kay, I'm done.
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and I was like, "Nooo. I liked it before I even knew you liked that type of music." and well, you get the point. I use to have like, a huge crush on him. But he's a fucking dick if you're not going out with him. Or if he doesn't like you. He just wants girls to fuck him. Yeah, he told me he wanted to fuck me. Kinda odd. I've been told that from older boy friends. Like, lets see here, Colton, Bowen, Ryan, Anvil, haha, Uhhh...Aaron, Skyler?, wait no, not him...well, there's more. But ewww! I'm only 12! But they don't care, do they? No. Darren's an asshole sometimes. He always punches me in the booooooob. ALWAYS! How would he like it if I punched him in his non-grown boobies. Ha. He wouldn't. Brittany said that she thinks Darren likes me. EWWW! He does not! He's like, 21 and I'm 12! He's nine years older then me. AHHHHHH! 0_o. What the hell? I'm listening to LimpBizkit. It's kinda catchy. But pretty gay. Hey, it's not my burned CD. It was Jayme's she gave it to me.
Whatev. Kay, I'm done.
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