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today has been interesting.
i have so many thoughts running through my head it's hard to start with one. i guess the beginning is always good...
so i woke up this morning fully rested, which rarely happens. but i felt so icky...unhealthy and fat and gross. so today was definitely a fat day. yuck.
then i go to read el-jay and jenny posted about donna...which of course got me thinking about how i've been surprisingly okay about it since i've been here. and with that revalation of course i immediately became not okay. i read the comments...i haven't done that in a while. and i was sitting here in my room all alone just crying and crying and hurting and missing her so painfully...
i just wish i could see her again. sometimes i need her laugh, her voice, her presence. i need her to make me laugh, to make me act silly and bitch about people for no particular reason. i miss everything about her. this feeling in my stomach won't go away.
and then i can't imagine that we all won't be together on the 11th...i feel like i can't handle that. i need group hugs. i need alana hugs and ryan hugs and jocelin hugs and stephanie hugs and emily hugs and katie hugs and kaitlin hugs and everyone else and i need them all at once. all i can say is that i'm so grateful that cak and jenny and barbra are here.
on a lighter note...
it's quarter night! beers for a quarter! tuesday night! i <3 NO. they should make those shirts.
god, you all must think i'm so depressing. it's the only time i post. i'll try to modify that. promise.
i have so many thoughts running through my head it's hard to start with one. i guess the beginning is always good...
so i woke up this morning fully rested, which rarely happens. but i felt so icky...unhealthy and fat and gross. so today was definitely a fat day. yuck.
then i go to read el-jay and jenny posted about donna...which of course got me thinking about how i've been surprisingly okay about it since i've been here. and with that revalation of course i immediately became not okay. i read the comments...i haven't done that in a while. and i was sitting here in my room all alone just crying and crying and hurting and missing her so painfully...
i just wish i could see her again. sometimes i need her laugh, her voice, her presence. i need her to make me laugh, to make me act silly and bitch about people for no particular reason. i miss everything about her. this feeling in my stomach won't go away.
and then i can't imagine that we all won't be together on the 11th...i feel like i can't handle that. i need group hugs. i need alana hugs and ryan hugs and jocelin hugs and stephanie hugs and emily hugs and katie hugs and kaitlin hugs and everyone else and i need them all at once. all i can say is that i'm so grateful that cak and jenny and barbra are here.
on a lighter note...
it's quarter night! beers for a quarter! tuesday night! i <3 NO. they should make those shirts.
god, you all must think i'm so depressing. it's the only time i post. i'll try to modify that. promise.