..*I just want you to know who I am*..
I have a busy week... I don't want any of it.
I thought about going to Jess's funeral, but it's been so long since I've even seen her. I never talked to her after she left Appy and I just don't do funerals well.
I don't want to do senior pictures. I don't want to go back to school. Talking to Brooke made me think of how much I always dread school. Everyday I hate even going. Why is it that you try to be nice to people, yet they're so mean to you? I don't like being home either. I love my parents to death, but it's just this life. I could go on and on about how much I hate being me and how I don't understand what I did to anyone, but I just wont. It's amazing how many suicides occur because of "harmless teasing". I know what it's like to cry yourself to sleep every night after school. I've gotten to that point. If so many people hate you, then why should you want to live? Shane and mom are the only reason I've held on so long. No, this isn't a cry for help and no I don't want attention.
Be Like That by 3 Doors Down
He spends his nights in California
Watching the stars on the big screen.
Then he lies awake and wonders
Why can't that be me?
Cause in his life he's filled with all these good intentions.
He's left a lot of things he'd rather not mention right now.
But just before he says goodnight,
He looks up with a little smile at me and he says
If I could be like that
I'd give anything
Just to live one day
In those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
Now and dreams we run.
She spends her days up in the north park,
watching the people as they pass.
And all she wants is just a little piee of this dream, is that too much to ask?
With a safe home, and a warm bed, on a quiet little street.
All she wants is just that something to hold onto, that's all she needs.
Yeah!
If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
I'm falling into this, in dreams we run away.
If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
Falling in.
I feel I am falling in to this again
Yeah, so I ranted. Wah.
I thought about going to Jess's funeral, but it's been so long since I've even seen her. I never talked to her after she left Appy and I just don't do funerals well.
I don't want to do senior pictures. I don't want to go back to school. Talking to Brooke made me think of how much I always dread school. Everyday I hate even going. Why is it that you try to be nice to people, yet they're so mean to you? I don't like being home either. I love my parents to death, but it's just this life. I could go on and on about how much I hate being me and how I don't understand what I did to anyone, but I just wont. It's amazing how many suicides occur because of "harmless teasing". I know what it's like to cry yourself to sleep every night after school. I've gotten to that point. If so many people hate you, then why should you want to live? Shane and mom are the only reason I've held on so long. No, this isn't a cry for help and no I don't want attention.
Be Like That by 3 Doors Down
He spends his nights in California
Watching the stars on the big screen.
Then he lies awake and wonders
Why can't that be me?
Cause in his life he's filled with all these good intentions.
He's left a lot of things he'd rather not mention right now.
But just before he says goodnight,
He looks up with a little smile at me and he says
If I could be like that
I'd give anything
Just to live one day
In those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
Now and dreams we run.
She spends her days up in the north park,
watching the people as they pass.
And all she wants is just a little piee of this dream, is that too much to ask?
With a safe home, and a warm bed, on a quiet little street.
All she wants is just that something to hold onto, that's all she needs.
Yeah!
If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
I'm falling into this, in dreams we run away.
If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?
Falling in.
I feel I am falling in to this again
Yeah, so I ranted. Wah.