Jun 30, 2008 05:56
i am fat again.
im so disgusted i can hardly speak
who new that 20 pounds could sneak around back on me in 6 weeks
no pill to dull the thrill of life and love, and living just to be
but without it now, i'm so afraid of what it's done to me...
thin theighs and burning eyes
my wasted breathe, a pounding chest
a loss of all myself
was no self
is no self at all
but who am i with weight?
sombody that i can't take
someone i hate...
i... cant seem to make it to a happy place-
i always fall...
i fall...
i fall...
i... fall...
i fall.
i used to smile used to laugh
used to have a world of dreams
had a list plans
list of things that did not come to be
i'm just an empty shell
a shadow of who i used to be...
yes i was always sad
always mad
always hated me
but i had hope inside
a dream that i- could be a better me
now there's just a hollow girl that i can't seem to face...
i... cant seem to make it to a happy place-
i always fall...
i fall...
i fall...
i... fall...
i fall.