And I thought this was dead and gone
Africa and Soul Sucking Bitch (who wasn't such a bitch today) told me that Juju, my ex, felt the need to inform everyone about exactly how far we had gone sexually.
Which I would have been pissed off about if it had been true but I wouldn't have minded too much because it would have been true.
Instead he told them we went a lot further then we actually did.
Which I would have been REALLY pissed off about if we had actually done anything sexually except this is the boyfriend that wasn't only disinterested in me physically but also one that actually turned me down several times.
So instead of just being really, really, breath takingly pissed off I am furious. I don't remember ever being this straight up furious. I don't remember hating someone this much. And I mean hate. I mean really, really, really, really hate. I mean it with every single slut fibre of my body right now. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him.
Because how can you do this to someone you said you loved. Nevermind if that was a lie hopw can you do that to someone whom you were friends with. How could you do this to an aquiantance you respect. How could you do this to a perfect stranger, even.
He said this around Africa, a girl who is opne of my closest freidns, who spent the months we were togetehr listening to how disgustingly frustrated I was. She listened to how I felt like a slut because I was the one that felt like I was pushing things. He told her I was the one that had lied about that.
I want to break something. I can barely breath. By god, I swear.