Re: Baby girl...lolita_strangeJanuary 7 2010, 21:00:04 UTC
Girl, I want to come up there so bad =( I really do I'm so damn broke it's depressing. I know you know that feeling. I've been living on $9.47 in my bank account all week and barely a drop of gas in my car.
crossroads suck... however, I'm glad I have you and your advice because I watched you go through some tough shit and I know that your advice is sound and solid...and I need it. I feel like maybe life experience is what I'm lacking... I've only be a few places and had only a couple eye opening experiences, but I worry what kind of trouble I'll get myself into if I were to stop school right now. I'm so close to this degree, and though I aspire for more I know that AT LEAST right now, this year...I have GOT to get that accomplished.
As for living with Ty, Jacob wants in on it too so I think that would help if it all works out. I get scared thinking about it because I worry that it could possibly ruin my relationship but, we are together every friggen day... I'm so comfortable with him, and he is a solid figure in my world so that makes me feel good about the situation of if I were to live with him. I don't have a whole lot of options in gville...and living with Ty and Jacob doesn't sound all too bad. I think maybe I just over think it, I'm all too well at over analyzing.
rawr... big steps are scary, but my current situation needs change.
I think why I don't feel great about all the choices I make currently like school and work etc...is because somewhere I feel like I'm not the one making the choices, I really feel oppressed by my mother and all I do is really only to please her and not myself. I think that getting out would help me to make my choices (even if they were the same as before) for me, not her. I'm the only person in my home with a job and actually succeeding in college....and yet for my mother it's never enough. That constant state of pressure is enough to drive me up a wall and it is. Sort of lame to be a 21 year old with mommy issues...but they are there and very sickening...
Maybe I'll just sell my car and come run up to the cold tundra of Canada with you guys, lol.
I love you Lysandra thank you again for giving me your advice and wisdom it means everything to me.
crossroads suck... however, I'm glad I have you and your advice because I watched you go through some tough shit and I know that your advice is sound and solid...and I need it. I feel like maybe life experience is what I'm lacking... I've only be a few places and had only a couple eye opening experiences, but I worry what kind of trouble I'll get myself into if I were to stop school right now. I'm so close to this degree, and though I aspire for more I know that AT LEAST right now, this year...I have GOT to get that accomplished.
As for living with Ty, Jacob wants in on it too so I think that would help if it all works out. I get scared thinking about it because I worry that it could possibly ruin my relationship but, we are together every friggen day... I'm so comfortable with him, and he is a solid figure in my world so that makes me feel good about the situation of if I were to live with him. I don't have a whole lot of options in gville...and living with Ty and Jacob doesn't sound all too bad. I think maybe I just over think it, I'm all too well at over analyzing.
rawr... big steps are scary, but my current situation needs change.
I think why I don't feel great about all the choices I make currently like school and work etc...is because somewhere I feel like I'm not the one making the choices, I really feel oppressed by my mother and all I do is really only to please her and not myself. I think that getting out would help me to make my choices (even if they were the same as before) for me, not her. I'm the only person in my home with a job and actually succeeding in college....and yet for my mother it's never enough. That constant state of pressure is enough to drive me up a wall and it is.
Sort of lame to be a 21 year old with mommy issues...but they are there and very sickening...
Maybe I'll just sell my car and come run up to the cold tundra of Canada with you guys, lol.
I love you Lysandra thank you again for giving me your advice and wisdom it means everything to me.
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