feeling hermit...
i havent gone out much lately,have been going home at like 8 pm or if not,i just go to the bookstore,or to ONE friends house.
im tired of thinking,im tired of trying to be "creative",im trying of pushing and shoving things and people my way but they normally dont (well,this is kinda expected anyway hehehe) i havent even been updating in LJ multiply or blogspot. coz usually they are all work related and when i go home or when i leave the store i usually dont want to work anymore.my mind just shuts off, it doesnt want to think about designs,bills,customers and all those crappy "adult" things.
i've missed out on probably twenty gigs?night outs that ive been invited to and it sucks because knowing me who would go out every single night if i can now Can't go out. frankly im just too tired.so sorry if i said ill go ill try to go but in the end i just end up bailing out coz circumstances or my energy level just isnt up to it.besides if i go out tired and end up drinking im gonna get drunk and believe me, im a nasty drunk when im tired.i dont even want to be with myself during times like that.
it's just that,im doing so well now with my routine coz i get to do all the things im supposed to do the next day PLUS give 100% attention to the detail and design of the clothes.i will be launching it after i get back from the states (ill be leaving on the 26th) and this is something that is very very VERY important to me.something that i know i will be very proud of,so everything now i sacrifice for that.
but i guess i dont have much friends naman who complain that i dont see them,well except for my ateneo barkada whom i havent seen in like months or some years that i always say ill meet up with but never show up.they are all guys anyway so it doesnt hurt them that much.hahahahahaha
so there,that's whats been happening to me lately.everything is just work work work,even on the rare times that i do go out,its to an event or a gig where i can do some networking (I HATE HATE HATE DOING THAT) so sometimes instead of going out i just dont anymore coz i wont enjoy myself that much.
how's everyone?