sos hermoso

[lolita_couture]

I wrote something, but it was too thought out and therefore sounded fake...
let's start over:

I feel older,
or maybe not older,
but wiser.
I feel like I shut the door on a dark epoch of my life...
now all I see is light.
of course shadows are cast every once in awhile,
but I now know how to use my flashlight,
and it won't ever run out of batteries....
cause it's one of those that recharges when you shake it.

I love you,
but I don't need you...
I want you.
I'm done with everything,
but I want it all.
I love the morning,
but can't bare to waste the night.
I want to say a million things,
but I want to leave room for all the things you have to say.

I want to dance.

I feel that sleep is a waste of time,
but not always.
I want to make things easy,
but I still want you to work for it.
hard work pays off...
but not the kind of hard work your parents pounded into you.
I feel far apart from people...
and yet I feel more connected to them than ever.
I like to blend in and go unnoticed,
but I also crave attention.
I love color,
but am hesitant to use it because then the canvas is full,
but I think I'm learning that you can always add more color--
so technically the canvas is never full.
I want babies now,
but I don't want the responsibility.
I want to travel now,
but society says I have to finish school...
I should listen to me, but for those babies I don't have yet...
I'll make a sacrifice and stick it out until I'm finished...
time goes by fast...
I will be on my way soon enough.