I don't know what to do anymore......
I wanted to do SO much more this summer-and I didn't.
I keep telling myself that some of it is not my fault-but for the most part it is.
I looked at college stuff yesterday, and although I felt good that I sat down and made myself do it, I also felt so extremely dispairing.
why?
a)my SAT scores SUCK. and I know that what colleges post as their SAT scores is an average, an not the minimum, I still feel like I'm not working up to my potential. And I know that they take into consideration what your grades and GPA and that good stuff, but I feel like a lesser person for it
b)college costs a shitload. The book I was reading [one of those monsterously large U.S. college books] was from 2001, and that was 3 years ago-so college prices hav only gone up since then.
ahh-so much to think about-it's insane.
On the brighter front I am in my "NEW" upstairs bedroom
[my brother's old room] and everything of mine except for my clothes are in there.speaking of.... I should get on that....
will do-ooh and I'm gonna put up posters!
rockin
And....... I'm going to the beach tomorrow!!
I hope it doesn't rain
yay-it's gonna be fun!-or Miss Poots and I will ditch the boys!
yay
<3
I keep telling myself that some of it is not my fault-but for the most part it is.
I looked at college stuff yesterday, and although I felt good that I sat down and made myself do it, I also felt so extremely dispairing.
why?
a)my SAT scores SUCK. and I know that what colleges post as their SAT scores is an average, an not the minimum, I still feel like I'm not working up to my potential. And I know that they take into consideration what your grades and GPA and that good stuff, but I feel like a lesser person for it
b)college costs a shitload. The book I was reading [one of those monsterously large U.S. college books] was from 2001, and that was 3 years ago-so college prices hav only gone up since then.
ahh-so much to think about-it's insane.
On the brighter front I am in my "NEW" upstairs bedroom
[my brother's old room] and everything of mine except for my clothes are in there.speaking of.... I should get on that....
will do-ooh and I'm gonna put up posters!
rockin
And....... I'm going to the beach tomorrow!!
I hope it doesn't rain
yay-it's gonna be fun!-or Miss Poots and I will ditch the boys!
yay
<3