Feeling rather invisible.
End of the day and I'm feeling a little down. Just little things here and there making me feel forgettable, ignorable, invisible. Whatever...I already knew I was never the center of attention and frankly tend to spend more time in my head than in the real world, but it hurts.
Sad thing is that it just makes me want to retreat further.
And while I don't, it does make me wonder why some people think I'm invisible or forgettable. Did I do something to wrong them? Did I not do something? Is my name just too damn hard to spell and therefore it's much easier to remember the millions of Jennys, Susans, Pauls and Franks in the world? Ugh...
I guess feeling invisible doesn't help my feeling of "doing something" and to be frank, I've been a little lost lately. Almost dragging my feet out of fear, nerves or whatever. I come up with plans and cast them aside. Likewise, my ideas sound better in my head and never see the light of day.
I need to give myself a wakeup call.
I need something to change.
Not sure what...but something.
Sad thing is that it just makes me want to retreat further.
And while I don't, it does make me wonder why some people think I'm invisible or forgettable. Did I do something to wrong them? Did I not do something? Is my name just too damn hard to spell and therefore it's much easier to remember the millions of Jennys, Susans, Pauls and Franks in the world? Ugh...
I guess feeling invisible doesn't help my feeling of "doing something" and to be frank, I've been a little lost lately. Almost dragging my feet out of fear, nerves or whatever. I come up with plans and cast them aside. Likewise, my ideas sound better in my head and never see the light of day.
I need to give myself a wakeup call.
I need something to change.
Not sure what...but something.