an update from the far reaches of my brain.

[lolapagola]

i'm ok.
really.
for once i actually feel ok.
i paid the last of the townhouse bills.
i paid off three credit cards.
my child rode in the car from tampa to NPR yesterday without using a diaper.
the world is rolling right along.
i have finally come to terms with the fact that i ruly cannot make everyone happy all of the time.
i do what i can to conserve other people's feelings, but it just can't always be that way.
i am not a guilt-free, blame-free angel from some preconceived heaven.
i am a person who is trudging through trying to come to grips with her age and her need to validate her life.
i am weeding out the evil in my life.
i am trying not to get stepped on and used so much.
i am trying to help other people around me be who they are without forcing them in any direction.
i'm not alone, but i am not being forced either.
i feel like i am on a train and so far all of the stops have been educational.
they always say it is about the journey and not the destination.
i can truly say i have learned a lot on this journey.