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i don't blog anymore because i am running out of things to say here. i am running out of things because i already let myself open to more people than i ever would have. i don't speak because speaking amplifies all the bad things in life. i don't speak because i can't help but feel that life for me is over, though i know it is not, i just have to keep trying. but how many times can someone try before giving up? i really am not a strong person. i went snowboarding yesterday, and i only had that much energy to pick myself up that number of times before i ran out of energy. i wanted to keep on going but i COULD NOT. i was not alone but i felt i was weak and i let myself be left behind. it already feels like this, but i hope that this will not be the case in life.