On the verge of a shift
Click to viewI can't put my finger on how I feel lately. I kind of feel like I'm about to blow up my life again. That untrustworthy feeling I get when I feel out of control like my shadow is showing up to fuck things up for me. I'm trying to figure out what exactly she wants so I don't have to go down the painful road. I really need to meditate on that because I'm not prepared to deal with another fuckening.
Work has been miserable, but then I have moments where I feel better and get good news instead of constant bad news. I feel like we're on the verge of turning things around. I would like to take some credit for that rather than run out of a burning building, but I'm so tired and so burnt out.
I was contacted by a recruiter again. The job is in New Jersey which makes it so unappealing, I don't even know why I'm stressing myself out about going through with an interview. I guess the thought is that at least it's experience...to interview. Maybe I'll get an offer. It's for an ACTs community. A Life Care CCRC. I could use the experience for sure but I would rather do it in Pennsylvania.
I've also had all sorts of people showing up to get advice from me, or to just randomly reach out. It's sort of strange...ghosts from the past.