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I am thrilled to finally remember my password and find that people I believed to long ago quit posting, well, posting.
I am not, however, thrilled to see the just barely positive Oregon test on my bedside table. Scott is upstairs in our bed. I'm downstairs in our guest bed both because its an awesome mattress that doesn't make my legs ache, and also because I was sort of bitchy tonight (reason now understood.?
After so much soul searching. After so many, many reasons piling up, convincing me it would be oh so wrong to bring a child into this world, after three dead babies, the Goddamn stick is positive. Positive enough to even see it in the faint light of my ipad. I don't think I have the strength to do this again. I'm exhausted. I'm beat.
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