my sad little rant of the day....

[lola33]

Err... just posting to rant and rave, please skip if you don't really care, or if you don't want to lower your mood..... I'll probably have a pics post soon.. what with the 400ish that Nermal sent me.. and... the ones I aqcuire by myself...

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[nagaioyasumi]

Hey, I know how it feels. To think that your life is just falling to pieces and there's nothing you can do about it except to point and laugh at yourself.

First things first, and that's your health. You need to get that back on track. There's no use eating right and exercising if it's your mental health that's in bad shape. Do some yoga, do meditation, chuck a water bottle at the wall - DE-STRESS! In Chinese, we have this saying: "Even a hanging man needs to breathe." Instead of stressing about the marks you are getting in your subjects, forget about them. If you keep seeing your subjects as percentages, there is no way you're ever going to excel in them... because you're not really doing the subject... you're just doing the tests. Take a break and look at your textbooks... what do you see?! Do you see grammar points and vocabulary... or do you see bits and pieces of a language that will unlock to you the world of another culture?! The thing with learning languages is that you need to want to learn it, to know how to use it, to make your own sentences with it. It's no use learning how to speak it if you don't want to converse in it. So try not to look at all your homework like they're essays or tests... think of them as a composition, just like one of your fics, a piece of art written on oxygen-stained parchment in foreign hieroglyphics.

Secondly, your fanfics and your website and all those other things aren't your responsibilities! They are not! I'm sorry I asked you to update, I never meant for you to see it as your liability. Your priority is school, and we all know that, so please don't feel pressured to update when you really can't, we understand, because we have those commitments ourselves.

What you do need to do is clean up your room, because you do need to have a clean and tidy environment to work in. As much as I used to refute it, it is quite impossible to be studious in a messy room. But don't feel that you're cleaning it up because if your mum's nagging, clean it up because you want to create a better working environment.

So basically, it all boil down to wanting to do well in your studies rather than needing to. Don't stress out, eh, Lola?! Look after your health - both physically and mentally. And don't stress out. Take some time out to psyche yourself up - take a long bubble bath or a long hot shower or something. Oh, and did I mention - DON'T STRESS OUT!

Best of luck, dear. Passes all my luck to you. Huggles.