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So I'm not going to my TOP CHOICE school - it's official. *sigh* It's scary now that I have one rejection letter - I feel a knot in my stomach and I really think that I won't get in anywhere else. I only really wanted to go to Drexel - and it's sad because I sit here and think, I work really hard for good grades and do extracurriculars to stay involved, and it just wasn't good enough...
I hate feeling like I just wasn't good enough - it's just not a good feeling to have. And no matter how many people tell me that the school is missing out, or that I was meant to go somewhere else, I still can't help but feel hurt and sad and angry at myself for not pushing myself hard enough to do better or work harder. Maybe if I did, I would be in school right now, and I wouldn't be on the brink of tears.
That is all.
I hate feeling like I just wasn't good enough - it's just not a good feeling to have. And no matter how many people tell me that the school is missing out, or that I was meant to go somewhere else, I still can't help but feel hurt and sad and angry at myself for not pushing myself hard enough to do better or work harder. Maybe if I did, I would be in school right now, and I wouldn't be on the brink of tears.
That is all.