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right i think the only way to maybe sort out my head on this matter is to write it down. Ive prob just gone and had the worst weekend ever!!!!! one minute everything was fine and i was the happiest id been in a long while me and steve had decided to give it another go i missed him so much whilst i was away he was all i thought about and i couldnt wait 2 see him. So why the fuck did he screw me over so badly!!!!!!!????? 2 days ago 2 my shocking horror i found out he had slept with some1 else a woman of 32 actually his best mates siter. just wiritng it makes my skin crawl. Ive crid so much this weekend and still now i cant stop. i loved him so much, god i love him now after everything he has done like lye to my face saying he hadnt and sleeping with me 3 days ago like nothing has happened why did he do this 2 me?? I feel totally alone all my mates wanna beat the shit out of him but he isnt worth it and i really dont want 2 c him get hurt how stupid is that after he's shattered my heart. the most stupid thing about all of this is part of me wants 2 forgive him, why i wana do that is beyond me i dont think i can forgive him right now but maybe later in life i know whoeverreads this must think im totally stupid for doing this but you cant help wo u fall in,ove with and i have 2 say i totally fell for him i thought he was the 1. Why did he do this????????????