You Just Have To Laugh...
It's been a little time between updates but I've been real busy, by real busy I mean doing shit. No that's a lie, lol, I've been doing stuff but there has just not been anything to write about. I have come up with a plan, it's about time for someone to come into Jason's life and now is the moment.Or I think so? Now on one side of this two sided object by the name of Jason there is a voice telling it to go out into the world and to go on an adventure, looking for that perfect women, but on the other side there is this voice telling me to hold myself back. See school is coming up and this is senior year. This is the year that I'm suppose to look back on with a smile, do I really need the drama of a girlfriend at the moment.Well this search has been going on for a while and...... trust me I have been looking but no matter what I do I always end up finding something wrong with whoever I find, and it's never anything physical, it's always something about the personality or the over-all person. I just want that perfect girl to fall right in front of me and say hi. I find myself thinking about the future with this person, when I haven't even said a word to them, lol, I know I must sound really weird right now but I guess it's just time to get it all out there. At times I don't want a girl, but the simple truth is that at time I feel lonely. I see couples and think to myself "damn jay, why isn't that you." When it comes down to it I guess I just have to laugh about it, I mean I'm NOT going to sit here and cry about it or am I going to wondered about it until I can't think anymore. I have to just let life flow. I have to just let it all play itself out. I tell myself that over and over but I still feels those needs. I still feel as though I'm never going to find that person because of the way that I am. There is probably a list of questions that goes off in my head whenever I meet a new girl.
My List:
1) What will my family think of her?
2) Is there anything about her that would end up damaging our relationship?
3) Is she someone I can spend the rest of my life with?
4) Does she have any morals?
5) Who has she been with in the past?
6) Does she clean her ass?
And So On........ lol
All these questions when the bottom line is that in the end none of it means shit. Love is something that can not be questioned. When you have it you know it, and if your unsure about it chances are it not there. What I want is simple, I just want that simple girl, but why is she so hard to find.
My List:
1) What will my family think of her?
2) Is there anything about her that would end up damaging our relationship?
3) Is she someone I can spend the rest of my life with?
4) Does she have any morals?
5) Who has she been with in the past?
6) Does she clean her ass?
And So On........ lol
All these questions when the bottom line is that in the end none of it means shit. Love is something that can not be questioned. When you have it you know it, and if your unsure about it chances are it not there. What I want is simple, I just want that simple girl, but why is she so hard to find.