to the next step
ok yeah some saw it comming some didn't, well here it is i am single other than finalising the divorce i am completely single. things ended and now she is heading back "home" when she can afford it . then i will find the next step in life...its odd i hurts non at all now but as soon as i am truely alone i know i will break ... i think thats a korn song "alone i break", but yeah if i seem pissy its cause i am in pain, if i seen diferent than i "should be" know i am just dealing with the fact that my life didn't go the way i wanted, yeah selfish of me but i just say what we all think. it should all go how we want it. any one who says they don't think that way is lieing. so here i sit knowing i still love her but knowing it can't work so we must move on. i want to know why life is so twisted? in other news still jobbless but looking will try harder now that i will be alone need to survive need to she them i can survive on my own and don't need them...we all know i do need them but i want to lie to me for once i don't lie to anyone else so let me lie to me for a while i need to to survive in closing i love those who know i do love them if you have any dought then you don't love me and need to rethink what you think of me