Woah..
How long has it been since I've done a real post? *ponders* Huh.. a long long time I guess...
Too long, in fact...
So here it is for the first time in... a while!
A POST BY CHAD!!!
...Now what was I going to say?
I had a lot to say before I started typing.. aww fuck it :P
The past few months I've more or less been in something of a chrysalis.. I've gone through some ups.. and some very very low downs.. In fact, I won't lie, just like if I were really in a chrysalis.. I've spent a good deal of it curled up and not moving..
School started REALLY getting to me... I've been having a LOT of trouble with it, and for me.. that's a very bad thing.. I've never once in my life truely had troubles in school.. The learning, the work.. It all came naturally to me.. I've been to the brink of dropping out entirely and back, but that's not the answer.. It never is.. It's the way I've taken so many times though.. I get afraid.. and I run away.. I try to blame everything on something or someone else, but in the end it's all only me..
I started to think to myself that maybe I wasn't good enough for what I've goten myself into.. Maybe computer technology, although I'd planned on going for it my entire life.. Just wasn't for me.. but no.. It's just hard... it took quite a jolt for me to realize I can get through this...
First of all, kinda sorry to Dylan, who I'm sure will never read this, but all of spring break.. I genuinely kind of wanted left alone.. I pretended to be fine, but I'm sure you could see it O.o Know ya don't really care or anything :P but eh..
Anyway.. had this hellish program to write.. something that, in my opinion, has no business ever being written in a language like Basic.. but whatever.. I spent 90% of my time during spring break trying to write it, and failing time and time again.. I just couldn't grasp how to do it.. Until the day before it was due I finally had a breakthrough.. and I was finally able to do it.. Not exactly as it was supposed to be done, but I did it.. I finally felt a small sense of accomplishment in the whole slump I'd been through.. It really felt.. nice ^^
School wasn't anywhere near all that had me down, but I'll spare you all the details..
I finally feel like I've worked a lot of things out in my head.. I'm not emerging from the chrysalis as a butterfly or anything, but I'm a far better caterpiller ^^
Think I should just go on to the present before I go off into several billion tangeants and this post gets waaaay too long..
I've finally made a real friend at school.. I've had lots of friends.. and a single one from my past who's always been a good buddy, but finally made a good real friend ^^
If I were nerdly enough I'd do some calculations to see just what the chances were, in a town like this, that I'd meet someone in the way I did.. She and I work in the same computer lab, but never met.. She on Tuesday mornings, I on Wednesday mornings... One day I started seeing downloads of anime and such popping up on the computer we lab assistants share.. I'd sworn that I was the only one at that school who even had the remotest intrest in it.. My first assumption was it was this other guy who works there... but Wednesday before last.. I found out it wasn't.. so I was dumbfounded, looked at the date and times which the things had been downloaded, did a bit of stalking, and finally found out for sure and got her email address ^^ Through the magic of the internet we met today in person :P
She plays Yugioh and everything.. we've got an insane ammount in common.. It's a little bit freaky.. so yea.. today was nice.. hanging out with someone new.. dueling someone other than Dylan.. and losing to her too ^^ Not that she has the best deck in the world or anything.. Just I was a bit out of it, and hadn't played for a long while.. *glares* I'll get you next time, Gadget..
Anyhoo.. time came for her to go to work, so we parted ways after a lot of dueling, a little messing around in the arcade (trying to teach someone to play Dance Freaks is fun :P), and a good deal of talking.. aaand I went home..
Tonight I went to see The Last Samurai with my dad... Y'know all you people who didn't want to see it just because Tom Cruise had something to do with it... Fuck you, it's one of the best movies I've seen in a long time... I've been saying that a lot this year.. So many wonderful wonderful movies have been popping up.. Considering Return of the King as a movie of this year, which it is, as it's been playing in theatres longer in this year than 2003 by a lot.. here's my little "top" list so far:
1. Lord of the Rings: Return of the King
2. Big Fish
3. The Last Samurai
4. Hidalgo
Notso big.. but eh.. Each and every one of those deserves some variety of award :P Next one I'm looking forward to is Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind... but fucking Columbus crap theatre thinks they're too good for it.. Seriously it's a shame that a movie where Jim Carrey's NOT talking through his ass can't get some kind of recognition.. He's a wonderful wonderful non-comedic actor.. The Majestic.. The Truman Show.. both just wow.. and Eternal Sunshine.. it's written by Charley Kaufman for fucks sake.. The man's brilliant -.- it just has to be good.. I'll get to see it some day >.>
Ah and since I've managed to miss it as of a matter of minutes.. Happy Belated Birthday, Kellie ^^ This is your birthday song, it isn't very long Sorry I wasn't around for it.. I miss ya.. message me ^^ A lot of the time I'm there even if it says I'm away.. I'll see it eventually ^^
Alright.. I think I'm about done here... See yas in another 3-6 months :P
Too long, in fact...
So here it is for the first time in... a while!
A POST BY CHAD!!!
...Now what was I going to say?
I had a lot to say before I started typing.. aww fuck it :P
The past few months I've more or less been in something of a chrysalis.. I've gone through some ups.. and some very very low downs.. In fact, I won't lie, just like if I were really in a chrysalis.. I've spent a good deal of it curled up and not moving..
School started REALLY getting to me... I've been having a LOT of trouble with it, and for me.. that's a very bad thing.. I've never once in my life truely had troubles in school.. The learning, the work.. It all came naturally to me.. I've been to the brink of dropping out entirely and back, but that's not the answer.. It never is.. It's the way I've taken so many times though.. I get afraid.. and I run away.. I try to blame everything on something or someone else, but in the end it's all only me..
I started to think to myself that maybe I wasn't good enough for what I've goten myself into.. Maybe computer technology, although I'd planned on going for it my entire life.. Just wasn't for me.. but no.. It's just hard... it took quite a jolt for me to realize I can get through this...
First of all, kinda sorry to Dylan, who I'm sure will never read this, but all of spring break.. I genuinely kind of wanted left alone.. I pretended to be fine, but I'm sure you could see it O.o Know ya don't really care or anything :P but eh..
Anyway.. had this hellish program to write.. something that, in my opinion, has no business ever being written in a language like Basic.. but whatever.. I spent 90% of my time during spring break trying to write it, and failing time and time again.. I just couldn't grasp how to do it.. Until the day before it was due I finally had a breakthrough.. and I was finally able to do it.. Not exactly as it was supposed to be done, but I did it.. I finally felt a small sense of accomplishment in the whole slump I'd been through.. It really felt.. nice ^^
School wasn't anywhere near all that had me down, but I'll spare you all the details..
I finally feel like I've worked a lot of things out in my head.. I'm not emerging from the chrysalis as a butterfly or anything, but I'm a far better caterpiller ^^
Think I should just go on to the present before I go off into several billion tangeants and this post gets waaaay too long..
I've finally made a real friend at school.. I've had lots of friends.. and a single one from my past who's always been a good buddy, but finally made a good real friend ^^
If I were nerdly enough I'd do some calculations to see just what the chances were, in a town like this, that I'd meet someone in the way I did.. She and I work in the same computer lab, but never met.. She on Tuesday mornings, I on Wednesday mornings... One day I started seeing downloads of anime and such popping up on the computer we lab assistants share.. I'd sworn that I was the only one at that school who even had the remotest intrest in it.. My first assumption was it was this other guy who works there... but Wednesday before last.. I found out it wasn't.. so I was dumbfounded, looked at the date and times which the things had been downloaded, did a bit of stalking, and finally found out for sure and got her email address ^^ Through the magic of the internet we met today in person :P
She plays Yugioh and everything.. we've got an insane ammount in common.. It's a little bit freaky.. so yea.. today was nice.. hanging out with someone new.. dueling someone other than Dylan.. and losing to her too ^^ Not that she has the best deck in the world or anything.. Just I was a bit out of it, and hadn't played for a long while.. *glares* I'll get you next time, Gadget..
Anyhoo.. time came for her to go to work, so we parted ways after a lot of dueling, a little messing around in the arcade (trying to teach someone to play Dance Freaks is fun :P), and a good deal of talking.. aaand I went home..
Tonight I went to see The Last Samurai with my dad... Y'know all you people who didn't want to see it just because Tom Cruise had something to do with it... Fuck you, it's one of the best movies I've seen in a long time... I've been saying that a lot this year.. So many wonderful wonderful movies have been popping up.. Considering Return of the King as a movie of this year, which it is, as it's been playing in theatres longer in this year than 2003 by a lot.. here's my little "top" list so far:
1. Lord of the Rings: Return of the King
2. Big Fish
3. The Last Samurai
4. Hidalgo
Notso big.. but eh.. Each and every one of those deserves some variety of award :P Next one I'm looking forward to is Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind... but fucking Columbus crap theatre thinks they're too good for it.. Seriously it's a shame that a movie where Jim Carrey's NOT talking through his ass can't get some kind of recognition.. He's a wonderful wonderful non-comedic actor.. The Majestic.. The Truman Show.. both just wow.. and Eternal Sunshine.. it's written by Charley Kaufman for fucks sake.. The man's brilliant -.- it just has to be good.. I'll get to see it some day >.>
Ah and since I've managed to miss it as of a matter of minutes.. Happy Belated Birthday, Kellie ^^ This is your birthday song, it isn't very long Sorry I wasn't around for it.. I miss ya.. message me ^^ A lot of the time I'm there even if it says I'm away.. I'll see it eventually ^^
Alright.. I think I'm about done here... See yas in another 3-6 months :P