Up late in the morning
Dear, Freinds I haven't been to bed yet my mind racing through all that has happen to get me to this point in my life. I've fully traded marriage for a single life and I've been looking back going what the fuck, with all that I've done this was one thing I really didn't see coming. Divorce was one thing I didn't want any part of, I told my self over and over I know this could work I'll never give up. But in reallity I was gone from the first day I was told I was going to be a father, then in my life children were no where in site of my life. I wanted children to fulfill a small dream I had, was after having children and then having grandchildren is to play catch with my grandson and read books to my granddaughter, things I growing up never had. The family support thats missing from families, you should be able to ask for help and even get help when you least expect it or didn't relize you needed it. I spent my night troubled and now by sitting down and really thinking, along with putting this post in I feel there is closure in that part of my life. Sinisterly Your, Kilo C.S. Garrow