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Sometime in the future, I'm going to have to start looking into whether or not I'm renaming myself. On one hand, my name is clearly feminine and that means I'm not going to want it for the rest of my life. On the other hand, I realize it's different for everyone, but I do love and respect my parents, as incredibly frustrating as they're being just at this moment, and they gave me my name, which is something I find quite different than the societal assumptions that attach the female pronoun to me automatically when you see the shape of my body. The idea that I might be ready for a name that fits before I'm comfortable letting my parents into this process is not something that sits the greatest with me. I don't know. I am probably being irrational about the implications of rejecting the name they gave me, but something like this is a big deal. And I didn't do the greatest at getting them to listen about my asexuality or my insomnia, so I wonder what makes me think I'd be any better trying to tell them their eldest daughter is a boy.
So, since my name's the feminine form of a guy's name, I guess I'm mostly trying to decide if I'm most comfortable just going with that, or if I'd really rather it be androgynous.
So, since my name's the feminine form of a guy's name, I guess I'm mostly trying to decide if I'm most comfortable just going with that, or if I'd really rather it be androgynous.