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Fuck fuck fuckity fuck!
Ang dami kasing galit sa LJ eh. Nakikisama lang. Mga kaibigan, sana gumanda ang mga araw niyo. Sige, kung makikisama ako magmumura na rin ako.
My flight for LA leaves 36 minutes into April 6 so I'll have to be at the airport by 9pm April 5.
Here come two months of near-misery and soul searching again. I really don't want to continue with this immigration. Yes! I understand that to some people who are "less fortunate" I must seem like a complete jackass. Well, GODDAMN IT, you know what? I've fucking had enough of this guilt-trip. I don't give a shit anymore. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. I want to serve my country. I want to stay here. But FINE. If it makes everybody FUCKING feel better I'll give it one last go.
And yes, gods damn it...If they approve my request...I will live there for a while. But I'll be DAMNED if I stay there for longer than a few years. I will NOT turn into my grandmother. Soldiering off everyday for FOUR DECADES to jobs she could never really be proud of. And for what?! An apartment in Burbank safely OUT OF THE WAY of the rest of the world. Shopping at CostCo and taking walks in malls. Screw that shit! No sir. That's not for me.
I want to slap corrupt officials around. I want to dig mudslide victims out of the earth with my bare hands. I want to sing on stage to a sold out theater. I want to sail! I want to fucking shoot someone who deserves it.
There are so many things I want to do. And it all happens here. THey don't need people like me over there. They need me here. I need me here. I want me here.
Ang dami kasing galit sa LJ eh. Nakikisama lang. Mga kaibigan, sana gumanda ang mga araw niyo. Sige, kung makikisama ako magmumura na rin ako.
My flight for LA leaves 36 minutes into April 6 so I'll have to be at the airport by 9pm April 5.
Here come two months of near-misery and soul searching again. I really don't want to continue with this immigration. Yes! I understand that to some people who are "less fortunate" I must seem like a complete jackass. Well, GODDAMN IT, you know what? I've fucking had enough of this guilt-trip. I don't give a shit anymore. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. I want to serve my country. I want to stay here. But FINE. If it makes everybody FUCKING feel better I'll give it one last go.
And yes, gods damn it...If they approve my request...I will live there for a while. But I'll be DAMNED if I stay there for longer than a few years. I will NOT turn into my grandmother. Soldiering off everyday for FOUR DECADES to jobs she could never really be proud of. And for what?! An apartment in Burbank safely OUT OF THE WAY of the rest of the world. Shopping at CostCo and taking walks in malls. Screw that shit! No sir. That's not for me.
I want to slap corrupt officials around. I want to dig mudslide victims out of the earth with my bare hands. I want to sing on stage to a sold out theater. I want to sail! I want to fucking shoot someone who deserves it.
There are so many things I want to do. And it all happens here. THey don't need people like me over there. They need me here. I need me here. I want me here.