Instrospective moment of shite
It's kinda funny when one looks back at their life, even recent past, and smiles at all the good things that happened only to remember that most of them blew up in your face...the sensation from having your mood ripped in two completely different directions at once is strange, slightly addictive when one is starved for any true kind of emotion asides from anger and bordeline depression, it sorta feels like eating after starving for far to long, drinking when it feels like you've been thirsty all your life, but at the same time everything you take in feels tainted because you know that the feeling you're getting, the high so to speak, is from feeling shit in some way...annoying when ya think about it.