Failure to Live
I've prayed and I've prayed,
I've begged, and I've begged...
Pleaded... groveled... cried,
sulked, ignored, screamed, and have done, everything
I can think about to try and set this free... try and
stop the pain... Why does this one thing hit my heart
so hard? ... Why should it even matter anymore? ...
So many things remind me... It brings me down, breaks
me down and kills me in the cruelest way. I don't know
what to do, and I don't know how to find out. Someone,
please make it go away... I don't care the price... it
can't be any worse. This thing... it... It makes every
single thing worse... nothing can make me feel any better
about it. WHY? Why must I dwell on it so much? Why can't
it just go away? Someone tell me how to make it all go away.
.............
How... could...
...how could that happen?
What went through your head?
"Never let your mind wander... it might not come back."
Always,
C.S.
I've begged, and I've begged...
Pleaded... groveled... cried,
sulked, ignored, screamed, and have done, everything
I can think about to try and set this free... try and
stop the pain... Why does this one thing hit my heart
so hard? ... Why should it even matter anymore? ...
So many things remind me... It brings me down, breaks
me down and kills me in the cruelest way. I don't know
what to do, and I don't know how to find out. Someone,
please make it go away... I don't care the price... it
can't be any worse. This thing... it... It makes every
single thing worse... nothing can make me feel any better
about it. WHY? Why must I dwell on it so much? Why can't
it just go away? Someone tell me how to make it all go away.
.............
How... could...
...how could that happen?
What went through your head?
"Never let your mind wander... it might not come back."
Always,
C.S.