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The ultimate rant….
I have been very patient for the past 3 weeks. I’ve been very stressed for the past 3 weeks. I’ve been loosing my mind for the past 3 weeks. Let me just start by saying since the past 3 weeks I’ve been someone else. I’ve been at Ree’s house most of the time just chilling and just keeping me company. She’s been really good about it and so I love her for that. Smoking me up everyday and I’m starting to smoke more than what I normally do since spring break (pos)
I’m getting hours that are killing me at work. I rather fucking live there now then be there early in the fucking morning. I’ve been going to Lillian’s grave every chance that I get and every time that I go there to visit her she’s talking to me and its freaking me out. She’s telling me things to do, what to do, how to do, and this isn’t my mind I can actually hear her voice telling me these things.
I’ve been avoiding school contemplating on the thought of dropping out. Until then Stephanie tweaked out on me tonight threatening me if I dropped out. For one, I’m avoiding Lillian’s ex. Since the pigs don’t want to help me, I’m all alone on this one. Something about sticking up for myself or some shit like that. I got pissed off. Haven’t been to class since last week.
I have a great animosity towards people lately. I wish people who I love would just die and kill themselves. I have someone in mind who I would just like to repeatedly stick a butcher knife and stab the shit out of them. And I’m told the hate I’m feeling is normal. Well, killing someone to me every night in my dreams isn’t normal. But it would make me happy if they would just die.
I sent my application to UMass in hopes that perhaps I will get in…well who knows, its been a week since I passed it in and it takes all good time for me to know. I’m failing biology and probably have to take it again which means I have to go to summer school for a science credit to get into UMass.
This girl I met online is cool. She’s a very nice girl, and I hope she comes to over night laser tag with me Ree, and Steph. Obviously were going to do more than just play laser tag. I got a hotel room for four people so we could rink and smoke…and so I could rant my drunkenness. I wish Lillian were here to ease my pain.
I realized I don’t have a best friend. I can never have a best friend. Nor even a close friend. Just friends. Nothing more, and if your one of those people who are reading this, fuck off, the balls in your court.
I have nothing else to say except taken from a friend
I am my own best friend.
I have been very patient for the past 3 weeks. I’ve been very stressed for the past 3 weeks. I’ve been loosing my mind for the past 3 weeks. Let me just start by saying since the past 3 weeks I’ve been someone else. I’ve been at Ree’s house most of the time just chilling and just keeping me company. She’s been really good about it and so I love her for that. Smoking me up everyday and I’m starting to smoke more than what I normally do since spring break (pos)
I’m getting hours that are killing me at work. I rather fucking live there now then be there early in the fucking morning. I’ve been going to Lillian’s grave every chance that I get and every time that I go there to visit her she’s talking to me and its freaking me out. She’s telling me things to do, what to do, how to do, and this isn’t my mind I can actually hear her voice telling me these things.
I’ve been avoiding school contemplating on the thought of dropping out. Until then Stephanie tweaked out on me tonight threatening me if I dropped out. For one, I’m avoiding Lillian’s ex. Since the pigs don’t want to help me, I’m all alone on this one. Something about sticking up for myself or some shit like that. I got pissed off. Haven’t been to class since last week.
I have a great animosity towards people lately. I wish people who I love would just die and kill themselves. I have someone in mind who I would just like to repeatedly stick a butcher knife and stab the shit out of them. And I’m told the hate I’m feeling is normal. Well, killing someone to me every night in my dreams isn’t normal. But it would make me happy if they would just die.
I sent my application to UMass in hopes that perhaps I will get in…well who knows, its been a week since I passed it in and it takes all good time for me to know. I’m failing biology and probably have to take it again which means I have to go to summer school for a science credit to get into UMass.
This girl I met online is cool. She’s a very nice girl, and I hope she comes to over night laser tag with me Ree, and Steph. Obviously were going to do more than just play laser tag. I got a hotel room for four people so we could rink and smoke…and so I could rant my drunkenness. I wish Lillian were here to ease my pain.
I realized I don’t have a best friend. I can never have a best friend. Nor even a close friend. Just friends. Nothing more, and if your one of those people who are reading this, fuck off, the balls in your court.
I have nothing else to say except taken from a friend
I am my own best friend.